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Chapters (42)
  1. Cover
  2. Title
  3. Dedication
  4. About the Author
  5. Also by
  6. Acknowledgements
  7. Part One
  8. Chapter One
  9. Chapter Two
  10. Part Two
  11. Chapter Three
  12. Chapter Four
  13. Chapter Five
  14. Chapter Six
  15. Chapter Seven
  16. Chapter Eight
  17. Chapter Nine
  18. Chapter Ten
  19. Chapter Eleven
  20. Chapter Twelve
  21. Chapter Thirteen
  22. Chapter Fourteen
  23. Chapter Fifteen
  24. Chapter Sixteen
  25. Chapter Seventeen
  26. Chapter Eighteen
  27. Chapter Nineteen
  28. Chapter Twenty
  29. Chapter Twenty-one
  30. Chapter Twenty-two
  31. Chapter Twenty-three
  32. Chapter Twenty-four
  33. Chapter Twenty-five
  34. Part Three
  35. Chapter Twenty-six
  36. Chapter Twenty-seven
  37. Chapter Twenty-eight
  38. Chapter Twenty-nine
  39. Chapter Thirty
  40. Chapter Thirty-one
  41. Chapter Thirty-two
  42. Chapter Thirty-three

It was his mother who had suggested he should come on this particular writing course. She had seen an article on ‘Life Enhancing Vacations in Beautiful Places’ in the glossy supplement of her Sunday paper and Glendrochatt had been one of the four venues suggested. There had been a walking week in Andalusia combined with bird watching; a painting holiday in Greece tutored by a well-known artist; a music and meditation course in Wales offering such enticements as spiritual detoxification and energy realignment . . . and the creative writing week in Scotland. ‘Make use of your leisure to renew your creative vision,’ the writer of the article had urged piously. ‘Come home refreshed in body and spirit, with a new skill and a new perspective on life.’

‘That’s what you should do,’ his mother had said with conviction. ‘Go on a writing course. Remember all those essay prizes at school? Remember the excitement when you started to get a few poems accepted when you were up at Oxford? The writing bug has never really gone away, has it? We always thought you’d go into journalism before you got so smitten with the City. Now you’ve been given an opportunity to re-evaluate your whole existence and the time and chance to pursue a completely new direction.’

He’d raised an eyebrow at her. ‘Oh, is that what this is all about? A great new chance for me?’ he’d asked mockingly.

‘Yes,’ she’d answered. ‘At least, that’s exactly what it could be – if you choose to let it.’

‘I see. Someone else’s appalling bad luck turned into my good luck? Seems a bit unfair on them, to put it mildly.’

‘Better than wasting a chance! Better than wallowing! You can’t alter what’s happened so you must make your own luck now,’ she’d said fiercely. He could see she was on the edge of tears, and it was so unlike her to be critical – she who had been his staunch supporter through everything – that he’d felt ashamed. He thought with a pang that she’d got to look much older recently.

‘I’m sorry.’ He put his arm round her thin, stooped shoulders and gave her a hug. Then he said teasingly. ‘Poor old Mum! Casting your pearls of advice before swine as always! But I expect you’re right – you usually are. Give me the article then. I won’t promise to go, but I’ll promise to read it.’