Back Secrets and Shadows
Chapters (42)
  1. Cover
  2. Title
  3. Dedication
  4. About the Author
  5. Also by
  6. Acknowledgements
  7. Part One
  8. Chapter One
  9. Chapter Two
  10. Part Two
  11. Chapter Three
  12. Chapter Four
  13. Chapter Five
  14. Chapter Six
  15. Chapter Seven
  16. Chapter Eight
  17. Chapter Nine
  18. Chapter Ten
  19. Chapter Eleven
  20. Chapter Twelve
  21. Chapter Thirteen
  22. Chapter Fourteen
  23. Chapter Fifteen
  24. Chapter Sixteen
  25. Chapter Seventeen
  26. Chapter Eighteen
  27. Chapter Nineteen
  28. Chapter Twenty
  29. Chapter Twenty-one
  30. Chapter Twenty-two
  31. Chapter Twenty-three
  32. Chapter Twenty-four
  33. Chapter Twenty-five
  34. Part Three
  35. Chapter Twenty-six
  36. Chapter Twenty-seven
  37. Chapter Twenty-eight
  38. Chapter Twenty-nine
  39. Chapter Thirty
  40. Chapter Thirty-one
  41. Chapter Thirty-two
  42. Chapter Thirty-three

Before dinner Christopher and Marnie had gone to sit together on the white seat under the great beech tree overlooking the loch where they had started their friendship. Christopher lit a cigarette. He intended to try, not by any means for the first time, to give up smoking in the near future and thought that perhaps, if he had Marnie’s support, he might actually be able to achieve it this time. He didn’t want to risk making the attempt until a few imponderables in his life were sorted out.

They sat without speaking, but deeply aware of each other, watching the spinners from the previous evening’s hatch of flies doing their ephemeral, but spectacular, mating dance, rising and falling as though suspended in the air like mobiles hung from invisible wires. ‘All that dazzling courtship display – and then they only live for a day!’ said Christopher. They listened to the rhythmic lapping of the water below them and could hear the occasional faint plop and see rings spreading out across the calm surface of the loch where a trout had risen. Curlews bubbled and a woodpecker, hammering away in some distant tree, was clearly doing overtime. Both of them felt a sense of optimism that life was at a turning point.

‘Christopher,’ said Marnie, breaking the silence after a bit, tracing a pattern with her finger on the arm of the seat. ‘Could I make a suggestion?’

‘Of course. Anything. Just try me,’ he said, looking down at her in a way that made her catch her breath.

‘Well,’ she said, ‘on Sunday, when our week here ends, I thought I’d head straight up to Inverness in the car and go prospecting. Try to locate Eilean Dobhran and make some preliminary local enquiries. Stay in a pub or something. Today has literally been a dream come true. Would you . . . might you . . . consider coming with me? I’d just so love you to be there when I find the house. I’d love to know what you think . . .’ She looked up at him and the look of consternation on his face made her heart sink. She rushed on, ‘But you probably wouldn’t want to . . . .’

Christopher picked her hand up and locked his fingers through hers. ‘Shit,’ he said. ‘Oh, shit! Marnie, you must know it isn’t that I wouldn’t love to. There’s nothing I’d like more – but I can’t come then. I really, truly can’t.’

She swallowed, trying not to make her disappointment too obvious. ‘Oh well, not to worry,’ she said brightly, giving her shoulders what was intended to be a nonchalant little shrug, a backlog of past rejections making her wish she hadn’t mentioned it. ‘It was just an idea. Forget it.’ She tried to disengage her hand but Christopher hung on to it.