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Chapters (42)
  1. Cover
  2. Title
  3. Dedication
  4. About the Author
  5. Also by
  6. Acknowledgements
  7. Part One
  8. Chapter One
  9. Chapter Two
  10. Part Two
  11. Chapter Three
  12. Chapter Four
  13. Chapter Five
  14. Chapter Six
  15. Chapter Seven
  16. Chapter Eight
  17. Chapter Nine
  18. Chapter Ten
  19. Chapter Eleven
  20. Chapter Twelve
  21. Chapter Thirteen
  22. Chapter Fourteen
  23. Chapter Fifteen
  24. Chapter Sixteen
  25. Chapter Seventeen
  26. Chapter Eighteen
  27. Chapter Nineteen
  28. Chapter Twenty
  29. Chapter Twenty-one
  30. Chapter Twenty-two
  31. Chapter Twenty-three
  32. Chapter Twenty-four
  33. Chapter Twenty-five
  34. Part Three
  35. Chapter Twenty-six
  36. Chapter Twenty-seven
  37. Chapter Twenty-eight
  38. Chapter Twenty-nine
  39. Chapter Thirty
  40. Chapter Thirty-one
  41. Chapter Thirty-two
  42. Chapter Thirty-three

‘Exactly!’ she had said. ‘You’re bound to have changed. All that unrealistic rubbish about marriage and children and giving up our London life! I was never going to be that sort of person and I never pretended otherwise – but you wouldn’t have it. You had to nurture an unrealistic hope that I might suddenly turn into a cradle-rocking little Miss Muffet character. Surely now you’ve had all this time to brood about what a fun thing we had going between us, you must realise how crazy it would be to chuck it away for guaranteed boredom. Why do you always have to make such a big deal out of everything? Provided you don’t still hanker to settle down by an Aga to breed children and write books I’m prepared to give things another go. I can’t guarantee that it’ll last any more than you can, but before you started getting broody and idealistic we used to have a great time – and that’s good enough for me.’

She had been amazed when he said that it was no longer enough for him, and when he told her about the book he had written in prison she had looked at him in horror.

‘You’d have thought the last two years would have brought you to your senses,’ she said. ‘You’re such an impossible romantic. All right, maybe you might be able to get your thriller published – I can see that your prison sentence could make great publicity’ – Christopher winced – ‘but as for poetry,’ scoffed Nicola, ‘forget it! Where did that ever get anyone? Why can’t you stick to what you’re good at and let me do the same?’

‘How do you know I wouldn’t be a successful writer?’ he demanded, unnerved to feel his temper beginning to rise again. Nicola had shrugged.

‘I don’t know, but I can only say that if you choose to chuck away your flair for economics and throw up a highly profitable and exciting career – which you could easily get back – to satisfy a schoolboy daydream, then don’t expect me to hang about for you.’

‘Expecting you to hang about is the last thing I’m likely to do,’ he had said furiously. ‘Experience has shown me that the minute things go wrong for me, you’re off like a rocket with another man.’

‘And you’re becoming a pompous prig,’ she flashed. She’d gone on to tell him that he always wanted everything his own way and took himself far too seriously.