“Right,” Rabbit says.

Encouraged, Skeeter sees the truth: “Nam,” he says, “Nam the spot where our heavenly essence is pustulatin’. Man don’t like Vietnam, he don’t like America.”

“Right,” Rabbit says. “Right.”

The two others, pale freckled faces framed in too much hair, are frightened by this agreement. Jill begs, “Stop. Everything hurts.” Skeeter understands. Her skin is peeled, the poor girl is wide open to the stars. This afternoon he got her to drop some mescaline. If she’ll eat mesc, she’ll snort smack. If she’ll snort, she’ll shoot. He has her.

Nelson begs, “Let’s watch television.”

Rabbit asks Skeeter, “How’d you get through your year over there without being hurt?”

These white faces. These holes punched in the perfection of his anger. God is pouring through the white holes of their faces; he cannot stanch the gushing. It gets to his eyes. They had been wicked, when he was a child, to teach him God was a white man. “I was hurt,” Skeeter says.

BEATITUDES OF SKEETER

(written down in Jill’s confident, rounded, private-school hand, in green felt pen, playfully one night, on a sheet of Nelson’s notebook filler)

Power is bullshit.

Love is bullshit.

Common sense is bullshit.

Confusion is God’s very face.

Nothing is interesting save eternal sameness.

There is no salvation, ’cepting through Me.

Also from the same night, some drawings by her, in crayons Nelson found for her; her style was cute, linear, arrested where some sophomore art class had left it, yet the resemblances were clear. Skeeter of course was the spade. Nelson, his dark bangs and side-sheaves exaggerated, the club, on a stem of a neck. Herself, her pale hair crayoned in the same pink as her sharp-chinned face, the heart. And Rabbit, therefore, the diamond. In the center of the diamond, a tiny pink nose. Sleepy small blue eyes with worried eyebrows. An almost invisible mouth, lifted as if to nibble. Around it all, green scribbles she had to identify with an affectionate pointing arrow and a balloon: “in the rough.”

• • •

One of these afternoons, when Nelson is home from soccer practice and Harry is home from work, they all cram into Jill’s Porsche and drive out into the country. Rabbit has to have the front seat; Nelson and Skeeter squeeze into the half-seats behind. Skeeter scuttles blinking from the doorway to the curb and inside the car says, “Man, been so long since I been out in the air, it hurts my lungs.” Jill drives urgently, rapidly, with the arrogance of the young; Rabbit keeps slapping his foot on the floor, where there is no brake. Jill’s cool profile smiles. Her little foot in a ballet slipper feeds gas halfway through curves, pumps up speed enough just to pinch them past a huge truck—a raging, belching house on wheels—before another hurtling the other way scissors them into oblivion, on a straight stretch between valleys of red earth and pale corn stubble. The country is beautiful. Fall has lifted that heavy Pennsylvania green, the sky is cleared of the suspended summer milk, the hills edge into shades of amber and flaming orange that in another month will become the locust-husk tint that crackles underfoot in hunting season. A brushfire haze floats in the valleys like fog on a river’s skin. Jill stops the car beside a whitewashed fence and an apple tree. They get out into a cloud of the scent of fallen apples, overripe. At their feet apples rot in the long dank grass that banks a trickling ditch, the grass still powerfully green; beyond the fence a meadow has been scraped brown by grazing, but for clumps where burdock fed by cow dung grows high as a man. Nelson picks up an apple and bites on the side away from wormholes. Skeeter protests, “Child, don’t put your mouth on that garbage!” Had he never seen a fruit eaten in nature before?