Jill tells him, “You must let Skeeter tell it if he wants to. It’s good for Skeeter to tell it.”

“It happened, Nelson,” Rabbit tells him. “If it didn’t happen, I wouldn’t want you to be bothered with it. But it happened, so we got to take it in. We all got to deal with it somehow.”

“Schlitz.”

“I don’t know. I feel lousy. A ginger ale.”

“Harry, you’re not yourself. How’s it going? D’ya hear anything from Janice?”

“Nothing, thank God. How’s Mom?”

The old man nudges closer, as if to confide an obscenity. “Frankly, she’s better than a month ago anybody would have dared to hope.”

Now Skeeter does see something on the ceiling, white on white, but the whites are different and one is pouring out of a hole in the other. “Do you know,” he asks, “there are two theories of how the universe was done? One says, there was a Big Bang, just like in the Bible, and we’re still riding that, it all came out of nothing all at once, like the Good Book say, right? And the funny thing is, all the evidence backs it up. Now the other, which I prefer, says it only seems that way. Fact is, it says, there is a steady state, and though it is true everything is expanding outwards, it does not thin out to next to nothingness on account of the reason that through strange holes in this nothingness new somethingness comes pouring in from exactly nowhere. Now that to me has the ring of truth.”

Rabbit asks, “What does that have to do with Vietnam?”

“It is the local hole. It is where the world is redoing itself. It is the tail of ourselves we are eating. It is the bottom you have to have. It is the well you look into and are frightened by your own face in the dark water down there. It is as they say Number One and Number Ten. It is the end. It is the beginning. It is beautiful, men do beautiful things in that mud. It is where God is pushing through. He’s coming, Chuck, and Babychuck, and Ladychuck, let Him in. Pull down, shoot to kill. The sun is burning through. The moon is turning red. The moon is a baby’s head bright red between his momma’s legs.”

Nelson screams and puts his hands over his ears. “I hate this, Skeeter. You’re scaring me. I don’t want God to come, I want Him to stay where He is. I want to grow up like him”—his father, Harry, the room’s big man—“average and ordinary. I hate what you say about the war, it doesn’t sound beautiful it sounds horrible.”

Skeeter’s gaze comes down off the ceiling and tries to focus on the boy. “Right,” he says. “You still want to live, they still got you. You’re still a slave. Let go. Let go, boy. Don’t be a slave. Even him, you know, your Daddychuck, is learning. He’s learning how to die. He’s one slow learner but he takes it a day at a time, right?” He has a mad impulse. He lets it guide him. He goes and kneels before the child where he sits on the sofa beside Jill. Skeeter kneels and says, “Don’t keep the Good Lord out, Nellie. One little boy like you put his finger in the dike; take it out. Let it come. Put your hand on my head and promise you won’t keep the Good Lord out. Let Him come. Do that for old Skeeter, he’s been hurtin’ so long.”