Chapters (49)
- EPIGRAPH
- CHAPTER 1
- CHAPTER 2
- CHAPTER 3
- CHAPTER 4
- CHAPTER 5
- CHAPTER 6
- CHAPTER 7
- CHAPTER 8
- CHAPTER 9
- CHAPTER 10
- CHAPTER 11
- CHAPTER 12
- CHAPTER 13
- CHAPTER 14
- CHAPTER 15
- CHAPTER 16
- CHAPTER 17
- CHAPTER 18
- CHAPTER 19
- CHAPTER 20
- CHAPTER 21
- CHAPTER 22
- CHAPTER 23
- CHAPTER 24
- CHAPTER 25
- CHAPTER 26
- CHAPTER 27
- CHAPTER 28
- CHAPTER 29
- CHAPTER 30
- CHAPTER 31
- CHAPTER 32
- CHAPTER 33
- CHAPTER 34
- CHAPTER 35
- CHAPTER 36
- CHAPTER 37
- CHAPTER 38
- CHAPTER 39
- CHAPTER 40
- CHAPTER 41
- CHAPTER 42
- CHAPTER 43
- CHAPTER 44
- CHAPTER 45
- CHAPTER 46
- CHAPTER 47
- CHAPTER 48
She sat over the gas fire. Set in a wide hearth, it had cement logs and looked genuine, and it began to seem to her again she was in the other house, the house above the sea.
She shook her hair to dry it and the fire spat.
Later she dressed in a black wool dress, powdered her face and made up her eyes. She used the light amber blusher and lipstick Althene had given her. This was the mask, the visor of the battle helmet.
Don't be a fool. Just let them do what they want. They will anyway. All of them.
She visualized Ruth coming in, holding Malach's hand. Her hair was done in plaits and she wore a school uniform. Rachaela laughed aloud, bitterly.
So bitter, my love…
Outside the dove window came a vague noise of music. There was a camp of bikers on the common, down the slope. Camillo's companions, doubtless. She had opened the window once, and glimpsed a fire and tents.
The threads were being gathered up, the drawstring pulled tight.
Going away.
Soon she would be alone here again, with Eric and Sasha, and with Miranda. Miranda, who was growing young. If such a thing were credible. But it was. It was. Camillo, too—
"Damn them," she said.
She put on Anna's ring, the ruby heart. And then a silver snake with a tiny tourmaline in its head. Althene had given her that.
/ shall put it away when she goes. I won't look at it.
This is how they gather their rings. Heirlooms. The gifts of lovers.
He never gave me a ring. Adamus. He gave me Ruth.
She slid a Prokofiev concerto into the CD player. It had black humor, the sounds of diamond rats running about in a giant clock.
She felt a little sick, thinking of Ruth arriving in her uniform, with Malach.
At the commencement of the early dusk, Rachaela heard a car, a taxi, a way down the road.
Her heart stopped. She stood up.
Twenty minutes later, when her heart was beating solidly all through her body, Cheta knocked on the door.
"They're here, Miss Rachaela. Will you come down?"
What if I say no?
She came out and went along the passage, and down the stairs.
There was no one in the hall, but the doors stood open and Michael was closing them. Kei was beside him, carrying two bags. The lamps had been lit.
In the drawing room, unlike the usual sound of the TV, a murmur of voices.
/ don't want to go in.
Rachaela moved quickly across the hall and into the large white room.
It was full of warm light, and the colored windows were giving up their very last gleams.
Eric, Sasha, and Miranda stood in a line. They had donned dark clothes, as she herself intuitively had done.
She saw too Althene was not there. Nor Camillo.
Then they turned, and looked at her.
Malach, Ruth.