Back Our Darkest Night
Chapters (44)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Chapter 1
  4. Chapter 2
  5. Chapter 3
  6. Chapter 4
  7. Chapter 5
  8. Chapter 6
  9. Chapter 7
  10. Chapter 8
  11. Chapter 9
  12. Chapter 10
  13. Chapter 11
  14. Chapter 12
  15. Chapter 13
  16. Chapter 14
  17. Chapter 15
  18. Chapter 16
  19. Chapter 17
  20. Chapter 18
  21. Chapter 19
  22. Chapter 20
  23. Chapter 21
  24. Chapter 22
  25. Chapter 23
  26. Chapter 24
  27. Chapter 25
  28. Chapter 26
  29. Chapter 27
  30. Chapter 28
  31. Chapter 29
  32. Chapter 30
  33. Chapter 31
  34. Chapter 32
  35. Epilogue
  36. Acknowledgments
  37. P.S. Insights, Interviews & More . . .*
  38. About the Author
  39. About the Book
  40. Defeating the Silence
  41. Glossary of Terms Used in This Book
  42. Read On
  43. Also by Jennifer Robson
  44. About the Publisher

“Enough!” It was too much to bear. Too much, and she was far too tired, and lonely, and achingly sad, and more than anything weighed down by grief for her lost home, her life, and her beloved parents, to bear another word of Rosa’s unthinking vitriol. “How dare you judge me? You know nothing about me. Nothing of what I’ve lost—and it’s more than a plate. Far more.”

They stared at one another for a moment, so shocked they had forgotten to breathe, and then Nina sank into a nearby chair, her legs too wobbly to hold her any longer. What had she done?

Rosa stood, leaving the shattered plate where it was, and sat next to Nina. “I’m—”

“Please. Not now.”

“I was going to say that I’m sorry. It wasn’t right, what I said.”

“The thing is . . . you aren’t wrong,” Nina admitted. “I haven’t ever worked this hard before. And I know I’m clumsy and I never seem to get things right. But I am trying.”

Rosa sighed, but there was no anger or bitterness in it. Only exhaustion. If ever there were time for a peace offering, this was it.

“You’re tired,” Nina said. “Let me finish the dishes—I promise I’ll be careful. And you can sit down for a minute.”

“If I do, I’ll never get up again. But if you do the washing up I can get started on soaking the boys’ trousers. Caked in mud up to the knees, and their socks are just as bad. Nico’s are more hole than sock, too. Lord only knows what he does to them.”

“I can darn them. I used to— I mean, I know how to darn and do the mending.” She’d almost said that she used to mend her papà’s socks and clothing, but she was meant to be an orphan. There never would have been a father’s socks to darn.

She took over from Rosa, trying not to flinch when she dipped her hands in the scalding-hot water. There were only a few plates left, and once they were clean and dry and put away, she collected up the dishpan, using the edges of her apron so it wouldn’t slip from her hands, and carried it outside to water the rows of winter chicory and kale.

Rosa was back in the kitchen, her attention fixed on a pair of mud-laden socks, when Nina returned. “What should I do now?”

“The table needs scrubbing, then you can sweep the floor in here. After that’s done you can help me start the bread for tomorrow, and there’s a mountain of mending, too. You might as well get to it while there’s still daylight.”