Back Our Castle by the Sea
Chapters (56)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Prologue
  4. Part One: Autumn 1939
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Part Two: Spring 1940
  14. Chapter 9
  15. Chapter 10
  16. Chapter 11
  17. Chapter 12
  18. Chapter 13
  19. Chapter 14
  20. Chapter 15
  21. Chapter 16
  22. Chapter 17
  23. Chapter 18
  24. Chapter 19
  25. Chapter 20
  26. Chapter 21
  27. Chapter 22
  28. Chapter 23
  29. Chapter 24
  30. Chapter 25
  31. Chapter 26
  32. Chapter 27
  33. Part Three: Summer 1940
  34. Chapter 28
  35. Chapter 29
  36. Chapter 30
  37. Chapter 31
  38. Chapter 32
  39. Chapter 33
  40. Chapter 34
  41. Chapter 35
  42. Chapter 36
  43. Chapter 37
  44. Chapter 38
  45. Chapter 39
  46. Chapter 40
  47. Chapter 41
  48. Chapter 42
  49. Chapter 43
  50. Chapter 44
  51. Chapter 45
  52. Chapter 46
  53. Chapter 47
  54. Chapter 48
  55. Epilogue
  56. Historical Note

I thought back to Mutti’s letter – Remember that I have told the policeman everything he needs to know. I am ready now to tell them that it was me, to write it down and sign it. I’m so sorry, my darlings. This is the best way. I love you all so much. This had been her coded message to Mags. Her way of telling her daughter that she was taking the blame, and warning her to keep quiet.

‘Mutti was right in a way, though, wasn’t she?’ I said. ‘Mags was helping the Barons to prepare for the enemy landing – although she didn’t really know it.’

‘It’s her naivety that has saved your sister from prosecution,’ he said. ‘Sadly, your father made a conscious decision – he gave in to Mrs Baron’s blackmail in an attempt to protect your mother.’

‘I haven’t told the others,’ I said then. ‘I haven’t told anyone what Pa did.’

Pinstripe looked at me strangely. ‘How did you know about it, Petra? How did you know that he was responsible for sending the documents?’

I nodded towards the speaking tube. ‘I found out about Pa in the same way that you heard Mrs Baron’s confession – through the speaking tube,’ I said. ‘The day before Dunkirk. I heard Pa tell you the truth.’

Pinstripe smiled a little. ‘Well, there’s no reason for anyone to know now,’ he said slowly. ‘They’ll find out soon enough what Mrs Baron did. They’ll know that your sister was manipulated by Michael Baron, and that your mother is completely innocent. Let them remember your father as the man who saved the lives of many, many people – with his lighthouse and his lifeboat.’ He looked straight at me and crinkled his craggy brow. ‘But that’s a very heavy secret to carry around all by yourself, Petra.’

‘Yes,’ I said. ‘But I’m strong enough to carry it.’

We sat quietly for a while, watching the steady roll of the whale-grey waves. The U-boat had gone, but its cold, threatening presence somehow remained – lurking there in the murky water, just like the Wyrm. But, for now, there will be no more sacrifices, I thought. For now, those monstrous, writhing shadows will have to stay hungry.

I often think about the song I sang when I was sitting up on the cliffs, waiting for Pa and Mags to return from Dunkirk. In the smoky light of that dawn, a spell was woven that would bind me to the magic of the clifftops and the stones for ever. The doctor says that the feeling in my legs could come back any day, or it may never come back at all. I try not to think about it. Instead, I think about how proud I am.