Back Our Castle by the Sea
Chapters (56)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Prologue
  4. Part One: Autumn 1939
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Part Two: Spring 1940
  14. Chapter 9
  15. Chapter 10
  16. Chapter 11
  17. Chapter 12
  18. Chapter 13
  19. Chapter 14
  20. Chapter 15
  21. Chapter 16
  22. Chapter 17
  23. Chapter 18
  24. Chapter 19
  25. Chapter 20
  26. Chapter 21
  27. Chapter 22
  28. Chapter 23
  29. Chapter 24
  30. Chapter 25
  31. Chapter 26
  32. Chapter 27
  33. Part Three: Summer 1940
  34. Chapter 28
  35. Chapter 29
  36. Chapter 30
  37. Chapter 31
  38. Chapter 32
  39. Chapter 33
  40. Chapter 34
  41. Chapter 35
  42. Chapter 36
  43. Chapter 37
  44. Chapter 38
  45. Chapter 39
  46. Chapter 40
  47. Chapter 41
  48. Chapter 42
  49. Chapter 43
  50. Chapter 44
  51. Chapter 45
  52. Chapter 46
  53. Chapter 47
  54. Chapter 48
  55. Epilogue
  56. Historical Note

‘But you need to know what happened to Charlie to understand why . . . why things went so wrong between me and your Pa.’

I looked at him. His eyes were so like my Pa’s – round and ocean-blue – and full of sad, sad stories. I thought of the wedding photograph and suddenly I understood.

‘Mutti?’ I whispered.

‘Yes. Your mother.’ He looked down at the floor. ‘We couldn’t accept it – your grandmother and I. We couldn’t understand how our son could fall in love with a German girl, not after that war, after Charlie . . . My wife was very ill by then and the news that they were getting married was the end of her. Your Pa and I haven’t spoken since the day of her funeral. I moved away just after.’

I thought of Pa and Mutti’s lonely wedding day; the solemn, haunted faces of the bride and groom. My grandmother, Pa’s mother, had died just before he married Mutti, and Joe had always blamed them for her death.

‘And time goes by, doesn’t it? It’s frightening how quickly time goes by.’ Joe’s eyes were brimming with tears now. His gnarled hand clasped mine.

All those lost years . . .

‘I came back to try to build a bridge with your Pa, but then this war started, and . . . everything just came flooding back again.’

I thought about him calling Mutti ‘Jerry’ in Mrs Rossi’s bakery. Joe had come back to Stonegate to try to put the past behind him, but he had not been able to, and Pa had died before the rift could be mended.

‘I spent so long hating what I thought was the enemy,’ he whispered hoarsely, ‘but I was wrong. Time is the greatest enemy of all.’ He looked right into my eyes then, and for a moment it was as if Pa were there with me. ‘Every bit of hate left me the moment I saw that lump blown out of the cliff and you all crumpled up on the ledge below. I thought I’d lost you as well as your Pa.’

He looked terribly lost then, terribly alone.

I wanted to put my arms around him, but I couldn’t sit up.

‘Our Mutti didn’t kill your brother, Grandpa Joe,’ I said. I tried to swallow the rough, painful lump in my throat. ‘Our Mutti is the most gentle person in the whole world.’

Joe sobbed once and tears spilt down his weather-worn cheeks. He squeezed my hand more tightly between his. ‘I’m sure she is, Petra,’ he said.

I heard the faint calls of seagulls from somewhere beyond the window.

‘And she does beautiful paintings – of the sea, and the cliffs and the lighthouse. I think you would like her.’

Joe wiped his eyes. He nodded, trying to smile. ‘I . . . I’ve never actually spoken to her.’