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Chapters (29)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Dedication
  4. Mazzy Brower
  5. Part I
  6. One
  7. Two
  8. Three
  9. Four
  10. Five
  11. Six
  12. Seven
  13. Mazzy Brower
  14. Eight
  15. Nine
  16. Ten
  17. Eleven
  18. Mazzy Brower
  19. Twelve
  20. Part II
  21. Thirteen
  22. Fourteen
  23. Fifteen
  24. Sixteen
  25. Seventeen
  26. Acknowledgments
  27. About the Author
  28. Also by Kevin Wilson
  29. About the Publisher

“Oh,” he replied. He was smiling, but I could see that his mind was working, trying to figure out why anyone would want to talk to me if it wasn’t about Evie Fastabend and her evil mind. “Well, then what?”

“She wants to talk to me about the Coalfield Panic,” I finally said.

“Is it, like, an oral history, then? Frankie, jeez, I’m confused, and I wish you’d just say what—”

“I did it,” I said, screaming a little. “I made it happen. Back then. I made the poster. I wrote those words.”

“Shut up,” he said, frowning. “Frankie, you would get in a ton of trouble if you lied about that. She’s a reporter, so, like, she would—”

“I really did. I really did. Back then, that summer. I wrote that phrase, and I made the poster and I hung it up all over town, and then things got really weird, and it was too late to do anything about it. And so I just didn’t tell anyone, ever.”

“You didn’t tell me,” he said. “You didn’t tell me about this? What the hell?”

I reached for him and he let me, which was a kindness, to let me touch him. I hugged him. “I didn’t tell anyone, Aaron. Do you understand? I couldn’t.”

“Well, you must have told someone, because this lady knows, right?”

“It’s complicated,” I told him. “She kind of knew, and then she asked me, and I said yes. And now she is going to write about it. And everybody is going to know.”

“Well, now, shit, wait. You know, Marcus is a lawyer, so we should ask him about it first.”

“Your brother does immigration law, Aaron. He wouldn’t know the first thing about something like this.”

“Well, he knows the language, right? He could do, like, a cease-and-desist. Or sue for defamation of character.”

“But, Aaron, do you understand? You heard me, right? I did it. I did do it. I made it. The edge? You know about the edge, right? I wrote that. I made it.”

“Well, it feels really defamatory to bring that shit up now,” he said, trying so hard to protect me, which made me feel much worse. “It feels libelous or whatever to bring up something you did as a juvenile. Shouldn’t that be sealed, you know? The record of it should be sealed, because you weren’t eighteen.”

Junie would be home in less than an hour. We were not going to spend that time on the internet typing mass hysteria legal responsibility juvenile statute of limitations and reading twenty pages of results. It was too late for that. The story had already happened. I’d already written it.

“I think you should talk to Jules,” he said suddenly, referring to my literary agent. “I mean, you need to let the publisher know, too. Because they might not be too jazzed about this.”