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Contents ( 34)
  1. Note
  2. Table of Contents
  3. I. STORM
  4. II. CONVERSATION
  5. III. JIMBOY’S LETTER
  6. IV. THURSDAY AFTERNOON
  7. V. GUITAR
  8. VI. WORK
  9. VII. WHITE FOLKS
  10. VIII. DANCE
  11. IX. CARNIVAL
  12. X. PUNISHMENT
  13. XI. SCHOOL
  14. XII. HARD WINTER
  15. XIII. CHRISTMAS
  16. XIV. RETURN
  17. XV. ONE BY ONE
  18. XVI. NOTHING BUT LOVE
  19. XVII. BARBER-SHOP
  20. XVIII. CHILDREN’S DAY
  21. XIX. TEN DOLLARS AND COSTS
  22. NEGRESSES ARRESTED
  23. XX. HEY, BOY!
  24. XXI. NOTE TO HARRIETT
  25. XXII. BEYOND THE JORDAN
  26. XXIII. TEMPY’S HOUSE
  27. XXIV. A SHELF OF BOOKS
  28. XXV. POOL HALL
  29. ACTRESS MAKES HIT
  30. XXVI. THE DOORS OF LIFE
  31. XXVII. BEWARE OF WOMEN
  32. XXVIII. CHICAGO
  33. XXIX. ELEVATOR
  34. XXX. PRINCESS OF THE BLUES

Sandy wished Annjee would take him with her when she went to join Jimboy—but then Aunt Hager would be all by herself, and grandma was so nice to him he would hate to leave her alone. Who would cut wood for her then? . . . But when he got big, he would go to Detroit. And maybe New York, too, where his geography said they had the tallest buildings in the world, and trains that ran under the river.... He wondered if there were any colored people in New York.... How ugly African colored folks looked in the geography—with bushy heads and wild eyes! Aunt Hager said her mother was an African, but she wasn’t ugly and wild; neither was Aunt Hager; neither was little dark Willie-Mae, and they were all black like Africans.... And Reverend Braswell was as black as ink, but he knew God. . . . God didn’t care if people were black, did He? . . . What was God? Was He a man or a lamb or what? Buster’s mother said God was a light, but Aunt Hager said He was a King and had a throne and wore a crown—she intended to sit down by His side by and by.... Was Buster’s father white? Buster was white and colored both. But he didn’t look like he was colored. What made Buster not colored? . . . And what made girls different from boys? . . . Once when they were playing house, Willie-Mae told him how girls were different from boys, but they didn’t know why. Now Willie-Mae was in the seventh grade and had hard little breasts that stuck out sharp-like, and Jimmy Lane said dirty things about Willie-Mae. . . . Once he asked his mother what his navel was for and she said, “Layovers to catch meddlers.” What did that mean? . . . And how come ladies got sick and stayed in bed when they had babies? Where did babies come from, anyhow? Not from storks—a fairy-story like Santa Claus. . . . Did God love people who told fairy-stories and lied to kids about storks and Santa Claus? . . . Santa Claus was no good, anyhow! God damn Santa Claus for not bringing him the sled he wanted Christmas! It was all a lie about Santa Claus!

The sound of Hager pouring coal on the fire and dragging her wash-tubs across the kitchen-floor to get ready for work broke in on Sandy’s drowsy half-dreams, and as he rolled over in bed, his grandmother, hearing the springs creak, called loudly: “You Sandy! Get up from there! It’s seven and past! You want to be late gettin’ to yo’ school?”

“Yes’m, I’m coming, grandma!” he said under the quilts. “But it’s cold in here.”

“You knows you don’t dress in yonder! Bring them clothes on out behind this stove, sir.”

“Yes’m.” So with a kick of the feet his covers went flying back and Sandy ran to the warmth of the little kitchen, where he dressed, washed, and ate. Then he yelled for Willie-Mae—when he felt like it—or else went on to school without her, joining some of the boys on the way.