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Contents ( 34)
  1. Note
  2. Table of Contents
  3. I. STORM
  4. II. CONVERSATION
  5. III. JIMBOY’S LETTER
  6. IV. THURSDAY AFTERNOON
  7. V. GUITAR
  8. VI. WORK
  9. VII. WHITE FOLKS
  10. VIII. DANCE
  11. IX. CARNIVAL
  12. X. PUNISHMENT
  13. XI. SCHOOL
  14. XII. HARD WINTER
  15. XIII. CHRISTMAS
  16. XIV. RETURN
  17. XV. ONE BY ONE
  18. XVI. NOTHING BUT LOVE
  19. XVII. BARBER-SHOP
  20. XVIII. CHILDREN’S DAY
  21. XIX. TEN DOLLARS AND COSTS
  22. NEGRESSES ARRESTED
  23. XX. HEY, BOY!
  24. XXI. NOTE TO HARRIETT
  25. XXII. BEYOND THE JORDAN
  26. XXIII. TEMPY’S HOUSE
  27. XXIV. A SHELF OF BOOKS
  28. XXV. POOL HALL
  29. ACTRESS MAKES HIT
  30. XXVI. THE DOORS OF LIFE
  31. XXVII. BEWARE OF WOMEN
  32. XXVIII. CHICAGO
  33. XXIX. ELEVATOR
  34. XXX. PRINCESS OF THE BLUES

“I’m jazzin’ it, creepers!” he sometimes yelled as he rolled his eyes towards the dancers and let his fingers beat the keys to a frenzy.... But now the piano was cryin’ the blues!

Four homeless, plug-ugly niggers, that’s all they were, playing mean old loveless blues in a hot, crowded little dance-hall in a Kansas town on Friday night. Playing the heart out of loneliness with a wide-mouthed leader, who sang everybody’s troubles until they became his own. The improvising piano, the whanging banjo, the throbbing bass-drum, the hard-hearted little snare-drum, the brassy cornet that laughed, “Whaw-whaw-whaw. . . . Whaw!” were the waves in this lonesome sea of harmony from which Benbow’s melancholy voice rose:

You gonna wake up some mawnin’
An’ turn yo’ smilin’ face.
Wake up some early mawnin’,
Says turn yo’ smilin’ face,
Look at yo’ sweetie’s pillow—
An’ find an’ empty place!

Then the music whipped itself into a slow fury, an awkward, elemental, foot-stamping fury, with the banjo running terrifiedly away in a windy moan and then coming back again, with the cornet wailing like a woman who don’t know what it’s all about:

Then you gonna call yo’ baby,
Call yo’ lovin’ baby dear—
But you can keep on callin’,
’Cause I won’t be here!

And for a moment nothing was heard save the shuf-shuf-shuffle of feet and the immense booming of the bass-drum like a living vein pulsing at the heart of loneliness.

“Sandy! . . . Sandy! . . . My stars! Where is that child? . . . Has anybody seen my little nephew?” All over the hall.... “Sandy! . . . Oh-o-o, Lord!” Finally, with a sigh of relief: “You little brat, darn you, hiding up here in the balcony where nobody could find you! . . . Sandy, wake up! It’s past four o’clock and I’ll get killed.”

Harriett vigorously shook the sleeping child, who lay stretched on the dusty chairs; then she began to drag him down the narrow steps before he was scarcely awake. The hall was almost empty and the chubby little black drummer was waddling across the floor carrying his drums in canvas cases. Someone was switching off the lights one by one. A mustard-colored man stood near the door quarrelling with a black woman. She began to cry and he slapped her full in the mouth, then turned his back and left with another girl of maple-sugar brown. Harriett jerked Sandy past this linked couple and pulled the boy down the long flight of stairs into the street, where Mingo stood waiting, with a lighted cigarette making a white line against his black skin.

“You better git a move on,” he said. “Daylight ain’t holdin’ itself back for you!” And he told the truth, for the night had already begun to pale.

Sandy felt sick at the stomach. To be awakened precipitately made him cross and ill-humored, but the fresh, cool air soon caused him to feel less sleepy and not quite so ill. He took a deep breath as he trotted rapidly along on the sidewalk beside his striding aunt and her boy friend. He watched the blue-grey dawn blot out the night in the sky; and then pearl-grey blot out the blue, while the stars faded to points of dying fire. And he listened to the birds chirping and trilling in the trees as though they were calling the sun. Then, as he became fully awake, the child began to feel very proud of himself, for this was the first time he had ever been away from home all night.