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Contents ( 34)
  1. Note
  2. Table of Contents
  3. I. STORM
  4. II. CONVERSATION
  5. III. JIMBOY’S LETTER
  6. IV. THURSDAY AFTERNOON
  7. V. GUITAR
  8. VI. WORK
  9. VII. WHITE FOLKS
  10. VIII. DANCE
  11. IX. CARNIVAL
  12. X. PUNISHMENT
  13. XI. SCHOOL
  14. XII. HARD WINTER
  15. XIII. CHRISTMAS
  16. XIV. RETURN
  17. XV. ONE BY ONE
  18. XVI. NOTHING BUT LOVE
  19. XVII. BARBER-SHOP
  20. XVIII. CHILDREN’S DAY
  21. XIX. TEN DOLLARS AND COSTS
  22. NEGRESSES ARRESTED
  23. XX. HEY, BOY!
  24. XXI. NOTE TO HARRIETT
  25. XXII. BEYOND THE JORDAN
  26. XXIII. TEMPY’S HOUSE
  27. XXIV. A SHELF OF BOOKS
  28. XXV. POOL HALL
  29. ACTRESS MAKES HIT
  30. XXVI. THE DOORS OF LIFE
  31. XXVII. BEWARE OF WOMEN
  32. XXVIII. CHICAGO
  33. XXIX. ELEVATOR
  34. XXX. PRINCESS OF THE BLUES

“Aw, play it, Mister Benbow!” somebody cried.

The earth rolls relentlessly, and the sun blazes for ever on the earth, breeding, breeding. But why do you insist like the earth, music? Rolling and breeding, earth and sun for ever relentlessly. But why do you insist like the sun? Like the lips of women? Like the bodies of men, relentlessly?

“Aw, play it, Mister Benbow!”

But why do you insist, music?

Who understands the earth? Do you, Mingo? Who understands the sun? Do you, Harriett? Does anybody know—among you high yallers, you jelly-beans, you pinks and pretty daddies, among you sealskin browns, smooth blacks, and chocolates-to-the-bone—does anybody know the answer?

“Aw, play it, Benbow!”

“It’s midnight. De clock is strikin’ twelve, an’ . . .”

“Aw, play it, Mister Benbow!”

During intermission, when the members of the band stopped making music to drink gin and talk to women, Harriett and Mingo bought Sandy a box of crackerjacks and another bottle of soda and left him standing in the middle of the floor holding both. His young aunt had forgotten time, so Sandy decided to go upstairs to the narrow unused balcony that ran the length of one side of the place. It was dusty up there, but a few broken chairs stood near the railing and he sat on one of them. He leaned his arms on the banister, rested his chin in his hands, and when the music started, he looked down on the mass of moving couples crowding the floor. He had a clear view of the energetic little black drummer eagle-rocking with staccato regularity in his chair as his long, thin sticks descended upon the tightly drawn skin of his small drum, while his foot patted the pedal of his big bass-drum, on which was painted in large red letters: “BENBOW’S FAMOUS KANSAS CITY BAND.”

As the slow shuffle gained in intensity (and his cracker-jacks gave out), Sandy looked down drowsily on the men and women, the boys and girls, circling and turning beneath him. Dresses and suits of all shades and colors, and a vast confusion of bushy heads on swaying bodies. Faces gleaming like circus balloons—lemon-yellow, coal-black, powder-grey, ebony-black, blue-black faces; chocolate, brown, orange, tan, creamy-gold faces—the room full of floating balloon faces—Sandy’s eyes were beginning to blur with sleep—colored balloons with strings, and the music pulling the strings. No! Girls pulling the strings—each boy a balloon by a string. Each face a balloon.

Sandy put his head down on the dusty railing of the gallery. An odor of hair-oil and fish, of women and sweat came up to him as he sat there alone, tired and a little sick. It was very warm and close, and the room was full of chatter during the intervals. Sandy struggled against sleep, but his eyes were just about to close when, with a burst of hopeless sadness, the St. Louis Blues spread itself like a bitter syrup over the hall. For a moment the boy opened his eyes to the drowsy flow of sound, long enough to pull two chairs together; then he lay down on them and closed his eyes again. Somebody was singing: