Back New York
Chapters (35)
  1. Maps
  2. Preface
  3. New Amsterdam
  4. New York
  5. The Boston Girl
  6. The Philadelphia Girl
  7. Montayne’s Tavern
  8. London
  9. Abigail
  10. The Loyalist
  11. The Patriot
  12. Vanessa
  13. War
  14. Fire
  15. Love
  16. The Capital
  17. Niagara
  18. Past Five Points
  19. Crystal Palace
  20. Lincoln
  21. The Draft
  22. Moonlight Sonata
  23. Snow
  24. Old England
  25. Ellis Island
  26. Empire State
  27. Brooklyn
  28. Verrazano Narrows
  29. After Dark
  30. Giving Birth
  31. Millennium
  32. The Board Game
  33. The Towers
  34. Epilogue
  35. Acknowledgments

When that whip lashed across my back, it was like a terrible fire, and a tearing of flesh, and I was so surprised and shocked by it that I screamed out.

Then I heard the whip whistle and crack again. But this lash was worse than the first. And I leaped half out of my skin. And as I did so, I saw the planter watching me to see how I was taking it. The third lash was so terrible I thought I was going to burst with the pain of it; my head jerked back so hard, and I felt my eyes starting out of my head. And they paused for a moment, and my whole body was shaking, and I thought maybe they’d done with it. And then I saw the planter nod to the foreman as if to say, “That’s about right.”

“I never stole,” I cried out. “I don’ deserve this.”

But the lash fell again, and after that again, and again. I was on fire. My body was straining and slamming into the post in agony. My hands were clenching so hard on the manacles that the blood was coming from my fingers. By the time he had given me a dozen lashes I thought I was going to die; but still he went on until he had given me twenty lashes.

Then the planter came close and stared at me.

“Well, nigger boy,” he said, “what have you got to say?”

And I was just hanging there against that post, at over fifty years of age, whipped for the first time in my life. And all my dignity was gone.

“I’m sorry, Boss,” I cried. “I’ll do whatever you say.”

“Don’t call me Boss,” he said. “I’m not a damn Dutchman.”

“No, sir,” I whispered. And if I had anger in me, that whipping was so terrible that I would have licked up the dust if he’d told me to. And as I looked into his eyes, I was so desperate.

“Don’t speak to me,” he said, “unless I tell you to. And when you speak to me, you thieving buck nigger son of a bitch, you look down at the ground. Don’t you ever dare look me in the face again. Will you remember that?” Then, as I looked down at the ground, he called to the foreman: “Give him something to make him remember that.”

Then the foreman gave me ten more lashes. At the end I believe I fainted, for I do not remember being taken down and thrown into the shed.

I worked half a year at that farm. The work was hard. During the winter when the snows came, the planter had a forge and we slaves were taught to make nails, which we did for ten hours a day; and those nails were sold. We were always put to work earning him money in some way. He fed us enough and kept us warm, so we could work. And even if we’d thought of it, we were too tired by the end of the day to give any trouble. I wasn’t whipped again; but I knew that if I gave him any cause, he’d do it, and more.