Back My Life as a Rat
Chapters (63)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. I
  4. The Rat
  5. The Omen: November 2, 1991
  6. Disowned
  7. The Happy Childhood
  8. Best Kisses!
  9. Obituary
  10. “Boys Will Be Boys”
  11. To Die For
  12. “Accident”
  13. Louisville Slugger
  14. The Little Sister
  15. The Promise
  16. The Siege
  17. Because . . .
  18. The Rescue
  19. The Secret I
  20. The Secret II
  21. Final Confession
  22. “Dear Christ What Did Violet Do Now”
  23. The Revelation
  24. The Bat
  25. Safe House
  26. Runaway
  27. II
  28. “Praying for Violet”
  29. Exile
  30. Sleepwalker
  31. The Iceberg
  32. Turnip Face
  33. Sisters
  34. “Mr. Sandman Bring Me a Dream”
  35. “Dirty Girl”
  36. The Stalker: 1997
  37. “You Are Not Wanted”
  38. Dirty Girl
  39. “Violet, Goodbye!”
  40. III
  41. The Scar
  42. The Burrow
  43. Valentine
  44. Keeping Myself Alive
  45. Off the Books
  46. Rat, Waiting
  47. Sorrowful Virgin
  48. Damned Little Dog
  49. Tongue
  50. Uncanny
  51. First Aid
  52. “Maxed-Out”
  53. The Misunderstanding
  54. The Return
  55. In My Mother’s Garden
  56. Forgiveness
  57. The Guilty Sister
  58. Howard Street
  59. Home
  60. Acknowledgments
  61. About the Author
  62. Also by Joyce Carol Oates
  63. About the Publisher

In my letter to Miriam I included Aunt Irma’s telephone number and asked Miriam to call me; I was not prepared for Katie calling me one evening a few days later.

“Violet? Hello! Miriam read me your letter to her. She—we—thought I should call you . . . It’s good you didn’t write to me—Mom would’ve brought in the mail and seen it. She’s out shopping now. I can’t talk long . . .”

Katie’s voice was sharp, edgy. She seemed both anxious and embarrassed and spoke quickly to guarantee that I would not interrupt.

“What you’re asking about, the appeals, whatever the lawyer is doing—I don’t know for sure. There’s a state ‘appeals’ court. Tommy Kerrigan is trying to help. He’s got ‘contacts’ in the justice system, he says. He’s coming out of retirement—maybe—to run for state assembly if he can get rich people to donate—he’s been interviewed a lot on local TV saying his ‘nephews’ had been hounded into prison because they are white. It’s kind of—I don’t know—kind of controversial, people are saying. There’s what they call a ‘white backlash’ here and in Buffalo too . . . Daddy has had to take out more loans. The bail bond was returned but the legal fees are almost as high. It’s just terrible what lawyers charge! But Daddy is hopeful—I guess. If the lawyers can get the sentences overturned Jerr and Lionel will be out—they won’t even have to wait for parole. Jerr has been in some fights in the facility, he’s been injured—in the prison hospital. I guess he was stabbed . . . Not sure about Lionel, he’s sort of closed off from us. He doesn’t want visitors, he says. Only Daddy, once in a while.