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Chapters (54)
  1. Miles Errant
  2. Lois McMaster Bujold
  3. "THE BORDERS OF INFINITY"
  4. Brothers in Arms
  5. CHAPTER ONE
  6. CHAPTER TWO
  7. CHAPTER THREE
  8. CHAPTER FOUR
  9. CHAPTER FIVE
  10. CHAPTER SIX
  11. CHAPTER SEVEN
  12. CHAPTER EIGHT
  13. CHAPTER NINE
  14. CHAPTER TEN
  15. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  16. CHAPTER TWELVE
  17. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  18. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  19. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  20. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  21. Mirror Dance
  22. CHAPTER ONE
  23. CHAPTER TWO
  24. CHAPTER THREE
  25. CHAPTER FOUR
  26. CHAPTER FIVE
  27. CHAPTER SIX
  28. CHAPTER SEVEN
  29. CHAPTER EIGHT
  30. CHAPTER NINE
  31. CHAPTER TEN
  32. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  33. CHAPTER TWELVE
  34. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  35. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  36. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  37. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  38. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  39. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  40. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  41. CHAPTER TWENTY
  42. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  43. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  44. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  45. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  46. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  47. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  48. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  49. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  50. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  51. CHAPTER THIRTY
  52. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  53. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  54. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE

He half-woke once when somebody shoved a sleeping mat under him. He gave Beatrice a sleepy bedroom smile.

"Crazy mutant," she snarled at him, and rolled him roughly onto the pad. "Don't you go thinking this was my idea."

"Why Suegar," Miles muttered, "I think she likes me." He cuddled back into the entwining limbs of the dream-Beatrice in fleeting peace.

* * *

To Miles's secret dismay, his analysis proved right. The Cetagandans returned to their original rat bar routine, unresponsive again to their prisoners' internal permutations. Miles was not sure he liked that. True, it gave him ample opportunity to fine-tune his distribution scheme. But some harassment from the dome would have directed the prisoners' attention outward, given them a foe again, above all broken the paralyzing boredom of their lives. In the long run, Tris must prove right.

"I hate an enemy who doesn't make mistakes," Miles muttered irritably, and flung his efforts into events he could control.

He found a phlegmatic prisoner with a steady heartbeat to lie in the dirt and count his own pulse, and began timing distribution, and then working on reducing timing.

"It's a spiritual exercise," he announced when he had his fourteen quartermasters start issuing the rat bars 200 at a time, with thirty-minute breaks between groups.

"It's a change of pace," he explained in an aside to Tris. "If we can't induce the Cetagandans to provide some variety, we'll just have to do it ourselves." He also finally got an accurate head count of the surviving prisoners. Miles was everywhere, exhorting, prodding, pushing, restraining.

"If you really want it to go faster, make more bleeding piles," Oliver protested.

"Don't blaspheme," said Miles, and went to work inducing his groups to cart their rat bars away to distribution piles spaced evenly around the perimeter.

At the end of the nineteenth chow call since he had entered the camp, Miles judged his distribution system complete and theologically correct. Calling every two chow calls a "day," he had been there nine days.

"I'm all done," he realized with a groan, "and it's too early."

"Weeping because you have no more worlds to conquer?" inquired Tris with a sarcastic grin.

By the thirty-second chow call, the system was still running smoothly, but Miles was getting frayed.

"Welcome to the long haul," said Beatrice dryly. "You better start pacing yourself, Brother Miles. If what Tris says is true, we're going to be in here even longer because of you. I must remember to thank you for that properly sometime." She treated him to a threatening smirk, and Miles prudently remembered an errand on the opposite side of the camp.

She was right, Miles thought, depressed. Most prisoners here counted their captivity not in days and weeks, but months and years. He himself was likely to be gibbering nuts in a space of time that most of them would regard as a mere breath. He wondered glumly what form his madness would take, Manic, inspired by the glittering delusion that he was—say—the Conquerer of Komarr? Or depressive, like Tremont, curling up in himself until he was no one at all, a sort of human black hole?