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Chapters (54)
  1. Miles Errant
  2. Lois McMaster Bujold
  3. "THE BORDERS OF INFINITY"
  4. Brothers in Arms
  5. CHAPTER ONE
  6. CHAPTER TWO
  7. CHAPTER THREE
  8. CHAPTER FOUR
  9. CHAPTER FIVE
  10. CHAPTER SIX
  11. CHAPTER SEVEN
  12. CHAPTER EIGHT
  13. CHAPTER NINE
  14. CHAPTER TEN
  15. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  16. CHAPTER TWELVE
  17. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  18. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  19. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  20. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  21. Mirror Dance
  22. CHAPTER ONE
  23. CHAPTER TWO
  24. CHAPTER THREE
  25. CHAPTER FOUR
  26. CHAPTER FIVE
  27. CHAPTER SIX
  28. CHAPTER SEVEN
  29. CHAPTER EIGHT
  30. CHAPTER NINE
  31. CHAPTER TEN
  32. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  33. CHAPTER TWELVE
  34. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  35. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  36. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  37. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  38. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  39. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  40. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  41. CHAPTER TWENTY
  42. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  43. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  44. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  45. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  46. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  47. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  48. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  49. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  50. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  51. CHAPTER THIRTY
  52. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  53. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  54. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE

"No," said the Countess flatly. "That was Ges Vorrutyer, and Prince Serg. Their faction is now extinct." She smiled a thin, sharp smile.

"A madman."

"No one on Barrayar is sane, by Betan standards." She gave him an amused look. "Not even you and me."

Especially not me. He took a small breath. "A sodomite."

She tilted her head. "Does that matter, to you?"

"It was . . . prominent, in Galen's conditioning of me."

"I know."

"You do? Dammit . . ." Was he glass, to these people? A feelie-drama for their amusement? Except the Countess didn't seem amused. "An ImpSec report, no doubt," he said bitterly.

"They fast-penta'd one of Galen's surviving subordinates. A man named Lars, if that means anything to you."

"It does." He gritted his teeth. Not a chance at human dignity, not one shred left to him.

"Aside from Galen, does Aral's private orientation matter? To you?"

"I don't know. Truth matters."

"So it does. Well, in truth . . . I judge him to be bisexual, but subconsciously more attracted to men than to women. Or rather—to soldiers. Not to men generally, I don't think. I am, by Barrayaran standards, a rather extreme, er, tomboy, and thus became the solution to his dilemmas. The first time he met me I was in uniform, in the middle of a nasty armed encounter. He thought it was love at first sight. I've never bothered explaining to him that it was his compulsions leaping up." Her lips twitched.

"Why not? Or were your compulsions leaping up too?"

"No, it took me, oh, four or five more days to come completely unglued. Well, three days, anyway." Her eyes were alight with memory. "I wish you could have seen him then, in his forties. At the top of his form."

Mark had overheard himself verbally dissected by the Countess too, in this very library. There was something weirdly consoling in the knowledge that her scalpel was not reserved for him alone. It's not just me. She does this to everybody. Argh.

"You're . . . very blunt, ma'am. What did Miles think of this?"

She frowned thoughtfully. "He's never asked me anything. It's possible that unhappy period in Aral's youth has come to Miles's ears only as the garbled slander of Aral's political enemies, and been discounted."

"Why tell me?"

"You asked. You are an adult. And . . . you have a greater need to know. Because of Galen. If things are ever to be square between you and Aral, your view of him should be neither falsely exalted nor falsely low. Aral is a great man. I, a Betan, say this; but I don't confuse greatness with perfection. To be great anyhow is . . . the higher achievement." She gave him a crooked smile. "It should give you hope, eh?"

"Huh. Block me from escape, you mean. Are you saying that no matter how screwed up I was, you'd still expect me to work wonders?" Appalling.