Chapters (45)
He spoke politely but seemed to have no intentions to get back with me. He does not want me back at Verdant Green! Is his life so good without me? Am I the only fool missing him? Anu felt dejected as she walked to her in-law’s house. Thinking back on their conversation, Sanju had said nothing to indicate that he wanted them to be together. Anu messaged Pete. ‘Why can’t life work the way we want?’
Pete: Because you have to lose some to win some.
Anu: But I want to win all!
Pete: Then someone else has to lose all!
Anu sighed. Now she was willing to lose some to Sanju but he seemed determined to win all.
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By the time she reached home, Anu had decided to just let things be. As Pete had said, she had to heal first. She had to become whole again. An intense sadness kept creeping up on her but she fought back hard. She had told Sanju how she felt, and he had said he would call tomorrow. She didn’t want to think about what happens if he didn’t call. That was a worry for later. With Vicky next to her and a large bag of chips between them, Anu settled down to watch Finding Nemo for the hundredth time.
When the doorbell rang around nine at night, Anu’s ears perked up. Vicky dashed to the door crying a long ‘Daddyyyy’. Tacky, but both Anu and Sanju had their own ways to ring the bell. Anu felt numb. Just when she thought they were over, just when she thought Sanju would never come back, there he was. Then it occurred to her—probably he was there to end it all. Vicky was jumping up and down at the door to get to the latch. Anu picked up the courage to open the door.
‘Hi,’ she said leaning against the door. The good news was that he carried no papers with him. That meant no divorce that night at least.
‘Hi,’ he stopped at the door. To Anu’s eyes, he looked exhausted. He has missed me, said her confident mind. He looks like death only because he has come from the office, yelled her logical brain. Then it yelled more. Get a grip, woman.
‘Want to come in?’ Anu looked at Sanju quizzically. Okay, that was a stupid question when he was at the door.
Sanju looked slightly irritated. ‘What do you think?’ He came inside, closed the door, and hoisted Vicky into the air.
Vicky giggled and Sanju played some more with him. Anu stood uncertainly. What was she to do? If it was like before, she would make them both coffee. She decided to do the same.