“I couldn’t fight the war on two fronts,” Curran said. “Something was attacking Desandra, and with everything concentrated on keeping her safe, I couldn’t gamble with your life. I didn’t want someone to shoot you or a giant rock to fall on your head. I couldn’t be there with you because they kept me busy. I was locked into choosing between getting panacea for the Pack or keeping you alive. So I became interested in Lorelei, because if they thought I was nibbling their bait, there was no reason to kill you and risk turning you into a martyr. I’ve been taking her on long walks where nobody would see us, while Saiman’s been walking around the castle pretending to be her, trying to find the contract and find someone who knows something about it.”

“Saiman’s in the castle?”

“He’s been in castle the entire time except for the first night. I walked him in as Mahon the morning after the first dinner.”

I knew the answer, but I asked anyway. “Why didn’t you tell me?”

“Because you can’t lie, Kate. Everything you think is right there on your face. I’ve met kindergarteners who are better actors than you. I needed you to look jealous and worried, and I needed it to be genuine, so they would dismiss you as a possible target. The entire plan hinged on it.”

Aha. “That’s some plan.”

“It was a good plan. I thought of it and I executed it, and it was going along fine until you decided to go off into the mountains.”

I hid my face in my hands.

“Kate?” he asked.

I should have been angry and screaming, but I just felt tired and hollow.

“Kate?” he repeated. “Are you okay?”

I looked at him. “No.”

He waited.

“You put me through hell because you think I’m a bad liar.” My voice was completely flat. I couldn’t scrape together enough feelings for anything else.

“That’s not what it is.”

“Yes, it is,” I said quietly. “Curran, think about it for a minute. My life is in danger and you don’t trust me enough to tell me about it. You have no idea how bad you made me feel.”

“I was trying to keep you alive. Even if it meant we couldn’t be together. Even if it meant watching Hugh making circles around you like a fucking shark. You don’t trust me either, Kate. All the shit we’ve been through should’ve bought me some time, but you believed I lost my head over some girl after three days.”

I didn’t even hurt anymore. I just felt this empty dry sadness. “And that’s exactly the problem.”

“Kate?” He crouched by me, one knee on the ground, and leaned forward to look at my face. “Baby? Punch me or something.”