Chapters (42)
- Cover
- Dedication
- • Part 1 •
- • Chapter 1 •
- • Chapter 2 •
- • Chapter 3 •
- • Chapter 4 •
- • Chapter 5 •
- • Chapter 6 •
- • Chapter 7 •
- • Chapter 8 •
- • Chapter 9 •
- • Chapter 10 •
- • Chapter 11 •
- • Chapter 12 •
- • Chapter 13 •
- • Chapter 14 •
- • Chapter 15 •
- • Part 2 •
- • Chapter 16 •
- • Chapter 17 •
- • Chapter 18 •
- • Chapter 19 •
- • Chapter 20 •
- • Chapter 21 •
- • Chapter 22 •
- • Chapter 23 •
- • Chapter 24 •
- • Part 3 •
- • Chapter 25 •
- • Chapter 26 •
- • Chapter 27 •
- • Chapter 28 •
- • Chapter 29 •
- • Chapter 30 •
- Acknowledgments
- Reading Group Guide
- ‘Meant to Be Mine’ Teaser
- one
- Continue Reading…
- About the Author
- Copyright
Penelope clears her throat and we fall into silence. She plants herself among the statues, makes thoughtful eye contact with each of us, and launches into a poem about new love:
Oh, darling, whoever you aren’t,
we’re naked in another yellow bed.
Winter’s coming and I’ve learned enough
skin that it’s like sky
to me. All the curtains in Brooklyn
are cream-colored linen and tied
in bows like nervous tongues
along white windowsills.
Indian summer spent
tumble-weeding through
subway systems, white
pavements, gardens to basement
bedrooms with rainwater blistered
ceilings to coil my body like a broken spring
in another mattress.
I would like to mean something
soon. To wake along
the frayed edge of morning
and unravel
the afternoon together, eat oranges in bed
and plant my toothbrush
in a porcelain socket like a flag.
Oh darling, whoever you aren’t,
let me learn your mathematics—
the important numbers—birthdays,
siblings, alarm codes, lovers—how many
months the bread’s been there, how
many days since you phoned your mother,
how many drinks until you’re whiskey silly,
how many ecstasies you can find in me.
White sky over Brooklyn, the endlessness
of new skin. I’ll whittle
these clouds into water—though I’m hoping
for ice, for the snap of weight and bright resistance,
for a white bone through skin—
for your bones, darling, for your skin.
It’s a startling sensation to hear your own inner thoughts—the ones you might not have ever fully admitted to yourself—spoken out loud in gorgeous poetic imagery here in this bizarre sculpture garden at a fun house disco. When she’s finished, Penelope concludes with a small curtsy. Raj fishes a five-dollar bill out of his wallet as a tip, per the event’s rules.
“Enjoy your evening, babes,” she says, slipping past us into the bar to find another group of listeners. “Good to see you, Raj.”
“That was beautiful,” I say, once we’re alone.
“It really was,” he agrees.
There’s a lull, and I can tell we both want to say more.
“It made me feel . . .” I try to search for the right words. “It made me feel exactly the way I feel about you? Like this is new and good and I want more.”
He nods. “Yeah. That’s exactly it. It was eerie.”
“Eerie, but kind of perfect,” I muse.