Back Little Doubt
Chapters (65)
  1. Cover
  2. Chapter 1
  3. Chapter 2
  4. Chapter 3
  5. Chapter 4
  6. Chapter 5
  7. Chapter 6
  8. Chapter 7
  9. Chapter 8
  10. Chapter 9
  11. Chapter 10
  12. Chapter 11
  13. Chapter 12
  14. Chapter 13
  15. Chapter 14
  16. Chapter 15
  17. Chapter 16
  18. Chapter 17
  19. Chapter 18
  20. Chapter 19
  21. Chapter 20
  22. Chapter 21
  23. Chapter 22
  24. Chapter 23
  25. Chapter 24
  26. Chapter 25
  27. Chapter 26
  28. Chapter 27
  29. Chapter 28
  30. Chapter 29
  31. Chapter 30
  32. Chapter 31
  33. Chapter 32
  34. Chapter 33
  35. Chapter 34
  36. Chapter 35
  37. Chapter 36
  38. Chapter 37
  39. Chapter 38
  40. Chapter 39
  41. Chapter 40
  42. Chapter 41
  43. Chapter 42
  44. Chapter 43
  45. Chapter 44
  46. Chapter 45
  47. Chapter 46
  48. Chapter 47
  49. Chapter 48
  50. Chapter 49
  51. Chapter 50
  52. Chapter 51
  53. Chapter 52
  54. Chapter 53
  55. Chapter 54
  56. Chapter 55
  57. Chapter 56
  58. Chapter 57
  59. Chapter 58
  60. Chapter 59
  61. Chapter 60
  62. Acknowledgements
  63. Canelo Crime
  64. About the Author
  65. Also by Rachel Lynch

‘You seem unsteady. Surely you’ve had a bit too much to drink.’

For a moment, Neil stared at him and Thomas felt as though he was going to strike him, or lose his cool in some other way.

‘I’m on tablets that might appear to make me look that way, but I have not been drinking.’

That was horseshit. Thomas had smelled it when he helped him up. He wasn’t about to get further involved, though, and saw him out, listening to more ranting about lowlifes and what to do with them.

After Neil had gone, he went upstairs and sat for a long time on Ella’s side of their bed. They seemed to have become a splintered family of individuals, with their reason to come together gone. They were floating around, and bumping into one another occasionally, awkward, not knowing what to say. Their family had been slashed apart with two knives in Potton Park.

He flicked on the TV to calm his nerves and was assaulted by visions of crowds of people shouting and chanting on the Beacon Estate. They waved banners: JUSTICE FOR KEIRA! STOP LYING TO US! STOP OUR KIDS DYING!

Thomas watched with his mouth open. It was like watching something from Beirut in the eighties. Could this be twenty minutes down the pretty road winding along Ullswater’s south shore? Surely not? There’d been a mistake. He turned up the volume. It wasn’t all yobs either; there were families down there, women and children, there was dancing, singing, speeches and interviews with so-called experts. It was being televised as a whole goddam social movement and his wife was not mentioned once. It was all about the Bradley girl.

Was it all a horrible coincidence? Was Neil trying to pander to him and deliver something counterfeit for the sake of a quick arrest? In his heart, Ella stirred. She agreed.

‘Oh Neil, what the hell are you doing?’ he said to nobody.

A loud roar went up over the crowd and he watched, transfixed. He went to turn to his wife to tell her about the incredible scenes on their doorstep, but stopped when he realised she wasn’t there. He turned back to the TV.

‘Dad?’

He looked at the door; it was Millie.

‘Darling!’ He held open his arms and she came to him. He kissed her head. It was a thing they’d done for as far back as he could remember: she bent her head and he kissed the top of it. She sat on the bed and looked around the room. It broke his heart.

‘I’ll turn this off,’ he said.

‘No, I want to watch. It’s amazing. Even politicians are waking up and getting involved. We need to stop knife crime. I want to go down there and get Mum on those banners too.’

‘What? You can’t go down there! I forbid it. It’s too dangerous!’