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Chapters (49)
  1. Title Page
  2. Dedication
  3. Acknowledgments
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Epigraph Citations
  49. Author Biography

But she’d frozen, in disbelief, and didn’t respond.

“Lauren.” He squeezed her arm, and she blinked.

“Can you hear that?”

“The milk, Lauren. What do you think? Can they have it now?”

“Test it,” she said, “on your wrist.” She listened again, desperate for it not to be real. But the words were there.

Patrick squirted a bit of the milk on the inside of his wrist. He shook his head, too hot. Then, his face lit with an idea.

“Get some cold water in the sink.”

She ran the tap until the small basin was half full. They plunged both bottles in.

“Try them now,” he said. Still much too hot.

She covered her ears with her hands. It couldn’t be. But the plea got in, the creatures’ plaintive, desperate message. In the mirror, in the harsh light of the windowless bathroom, her eyes were bloodshot. She looked away towards the bottles, floating slightly and steaming in their bath of cold. Come on, cool down, she thought. Once they’re feeding, they’ll stop.

Surely Patrick could hear it too, but he showed no sign, he hadn’t noticed. She took hold of his arm. “Listen,” she hissed.

He tried to take his arm away saying, “Ow, that hurts,” so she squeezed it tighter. He shook her off and she grabbed for him.

“No, really listen.”

The boys were screaming, screaming. He shook his head.

“What? All I can hear is screaming.”

“They’re saying words.”

He frowned, searched her face, almost laughed but stopped himself. If he just listened, it was clear, revealed in what one moment before was just a jumble of long purposeless sounds. She mouthed the words to him as they screamed them, and his face changed. He heard it then, she knew he did. The screams, and Lauren’s mouth, formed the long, drawn-out shape of the words help us, over and over, sad and panicked and pitiful.

“You hear it?” she breathed.

Patrick stared at her, his lips tight.

He checked the milk again. “It’s fine,” he said, and he whisked the two bottles out of the basin and charged into the room, handed one to the nurse, one to Ruthie. The babies’ mouths were plugged. Sweet silence relieved them all. Lauren’s ears whined in the sudden quiet, and she went to the bed and sat down. Ruthie and the nurse settled themselves in the two chairs.

“Thank heavens for that,” said Ruthie. “They’ve got impressive power, those little lungs, haven’t they?”

“That’s better, isn’t it, Morgan?” said the nurse. She glanced up at Lauren. “You OK, love?”

Lauren drew a long breath and nodded, smiled at the nurse. She held her hands together so they wouldn’t shake. “I’m fine, yes, thanks.”

“Do you want to feed him?”