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Chapters (54)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright Notice
  4. Dedication
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Acknowledgments
  53. Also by Chelsea Cain
  54. About the Author

Her body is warm under his hands and he feels the physical pull he always does when they are this close.

He has memorized her. He knows her intimately. Even after their first sexual encounter he could conjure her in his mind like a photograph. “I can’t get you out of my head,” he tells her. “I spent all day at a crime scene, and all I could think about was you.”

She leans closer to him. “Tell me about it,” she says.

Archie hesitates. She’ll get the file tomorrow, anyway, and it hardly seems like bedroom talk. “It’ll all be in the file,” he says.

“I want to hear about it from you,” Gretchen says, laying her head on his chest, her cheek over his heart. Her blond hair rises and falls as he breathes.

Archie doesn’t talk about his work with Debbie. Even when Debbie presses, he refuses to talk to her about the murders. He tells himself that she doesn’t really want to know. He doesn’t want to scare her.

But Gretchen is a consultant on the case. She’s seen all the crime scene files. She’s read all the notes. She’s viewed all the crime scene photographs and autopsy reports. For the first time, Archie can tell someone about his day. He can unload. It makes him regret not being able to share that with his wife.

“She was young,” he tells Gretchen quietly. “Twenty-two. Graduated from Cornish up in Seattle in the spring. Lidia Hays. The Beauty Killer murdered her at her apartment in North Portland. She lived off of Alberta, in a house that had been subdivided into four units. She didn’t lock her door. We think he entered early in the day and waited for her to come home from work. She was a server at a brewpub downtown. She got off at ten and told her coworkers that she was headed straight home. He kept her alive most of the night. She was tied spread-eagled and naked to her bed. She had duct tape over her mouth, or the neighbors would have heard her screaming.”

“The killings aren’t usually sexual,” Gretchen says. Her hair is over one shoulder, revealing the curve of her neck.

“It doesn’t look like she was sexually assaulted,” Archie says. “But the scene was definitely staged to make a point.” The chandelier throws a large shadow on the ceiling above the bed, like a giant spider. “Maybe she reminded him of someone,” Archie says.

“What did she look like?” Gretchen asks.

Archie hesitates, not sure she wants to hear the answer. “You, actually,” he says. “Blond, blue eyes. A beauty.”

He feels Gretchen shiver.

Archie touches the back of her neck. “Do you want me to close the window?” he asks.

“It’s not that,” she says.

His finger finds the small hollow at the base of her skull. “We don’t have to talk about this.”