Chapters (28)
"And you are presently considering his proposal?" His voice was steely. He stood very still, looking at her.
Callie couldn't hold his eyes. Suddenly she could not seem to think of anything but his arms around her, his body over hers. She found it difficult to breathe. She could not at that instant recall why she had said, in the middle of the night, that they would not suit. It seemed mad, as mad as those moments themselves, and equally dreamlike now. He had asked her to marry him, and she had remembered just in time that for some reason she must say no. And afterward…
She hugged herself, standing in her bare feet, covered in mortification. "Trev," she said, turning with an agitated move. "We must—could we—discuss something?"
"What happened between us last night?" he asked bluntly.
She took a deep breath, daring to lift her eyes. "Yes, I… suppose… that."
"It was, of course, iniquitous of me to take advan tage of you." He gave a short bow and spoke as if he were reciting something that he had memorized. "Let me repeat, my lady, that I beg of you to become my wife, if you would see fit to accept me."
From the sound of it, the last thing he hoped was that she should do so. Callie looked down and fiddled with the fringe of the cashmere shawl. All her reasons for refusing him came back to her in a rush.
"I know you feel that you must offer now," she said with difficulty. "But I don't think we would suit."
"Yes," he said. "You mentioned that, I believe."
"I'm rather… awkward and not very clever in company, you know. I fear that I wouldn't be a fitting wife for you."
She glanced up at him, half hoping to be contra dicted, but he seemed to find the hem of her gown to be of more interest than her face. He remained silent, his jaw set.
"I'm not a lady of fashion," she added, trying to make a clean breast of the whole. "I'm seven and twenty. And I'm English, of course. And not a Catholic."
He made a slight deprecating shrug. But still he said nothing, altering his attention to some painting on the wall, frowning at it as if it offended him.
"I suppose that might be overcome," she said, trying to reply sensibly to his silence. "But—you may have noticed—I'm rather dull and plain. I can't see myself living amid the haut ton. I was really quite a failure at it before, you know. I'd have to be like Madame Malempré and wear a veil all the time, so that no one would see me," she added, in a stupid attempt at humor.
His expression grew darker as she spoke. "Nonsense," he snapped. "Don't talk that way."