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Chapters (56)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Title Page
  4. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  5. Part One Solar Phase
  6. June 2017
  7. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  8. The Book of Leah
  9. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  10. The Book of Leah
  11. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  12. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  13. September 2017
  14. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  15. The Book of Leah
  16. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  17. The Book of Leah
  18. October 2017
  19. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  20. The Book of Leah
  21. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  22. November 2017
  23. The Book of Leah
  24. November 2017
  25. Kingdomtide 2017
  26. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  27. The Book of Leah
  28. December 2017
  29. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  30. The Book of Leah
  31. Advent 2017
  32. Part Two Lunar Phase
  33. The Book of Leah
  34. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  35. December 2017
  36. The Book of Leah
  37. Transfiguration 2018
  38. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  39. February 2018
  40. The Book of Leah
  41. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  42. February 2018
  43. The Book of Leah
  44. Lent 2018
  45. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  46. March 2018
  47. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  48. March 2018
  49. The Book of Leah
  50. Eastertide 2018
  51. Eastertide: Friday the 13th – April 2018
  52. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  53. Eastertide: Friday the 13th – April 2018
  54. The Book of Leah
  55. Acknowledgements
  56. Note On The Author

‘I have music on there, you see.’ I could hear him grunting with effort, had no idea what trick he was pulling off with that fifty-pence piece. ‘I take pictures with it too, so it’s not completely useless. Same with my iPad, I brought that as well.’

When he descended, his shirt was smutted, his knees damp. There were cobwebs in his hair. Our students next door had been let go for lunch, making the dash across the playground from main house to canteen in the still sluicing-down rain. We had missed out on teachers’ first dibs at the hot plates, so stayed behind to clear up the damage.

I took down the classroom portrait of St Rita, her eyes rolled back, the beam of light striking her forehead. Ben watched me wipe dry her face and the frame, as he worked the mop across the floor.

‘That St Rita,’ he said, ‘she’s a Catholic saint?’

‘Well… yes and no,’ I replied. ‘Augustinian, certainly. She’s the patron saint of impossible causes.’

‘And abused wives,’ he added, ‘and heartbroken women.’ A man who did his research.

‘Heartbroken and abused are the same thing,’ I said, returning St Rita to her nail on the wall, ‘wouldn’t you say?’

He gave me a sideways look.

I faltered, ‘Y– You wouldn’t?’

He pressed his lips together as if shaping an answer but returned to his initial point. ‘What I mean is, you’re not Catholic, here on Lark?’

‘Oh, it’s a leftover,’ I told him, ‘that’s all. A Catholic missionary came here in the… gosh, I don’t know, centuries ago, and he named the chapel, and the school was named for the chapel, and sometimes history wins over religion. Plus, we like the saints.’ I nudged St Rita, making her level. ‘So, we’re not Catholic, but we’re not Protestant either really. We’re not anything. We’re just… our own thing.’

‘You can say that again!’ He laughed, mopping a figure of eight with a flourish.

I couldn’t help but smile wide. My Knight of Cups was coming alive right before me, now that our talk had evolved beyond timetables and the right cupboard in which to find teabags. He was not what I had observed from a distance, was more than a man-shaped wish fulfilled. He was real, completely real, and I could not entrust him to Miss Cedars only to watch her lose her nerve again. So, I spoke in a new tongue.

‘You can say that again!’ I said, imitating him, coyly. Then, bolder, I added, ‘What is that supposed to mean?’ I adopted the same mischievous tone he’d used when talking of stealing gas canisters, of making fire, this Prometheus in our midst.

He stopped and considered me. I didn’t flinch from his gaze.