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Chapters (56)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Title Page
  4. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  5. Part One Solar Phase
  6. June 2017
  7. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  8. The Book of Leah
  9. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  10. The Book of Leah
  11. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  12. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  13. September 2017
  14. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  15. The Book of Leah
  16. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  17. The Book of Leah
  18. October 2017
  19. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  20. The Book of Leah
  21. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  22. November 2017
  23. The Book of Leah
  24. November 2017
  25. Kingdomtide 2017
  26. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  27. The Book of Leah
  28. December 2017
  29. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  30. The Book of Leah
  31. Advent 2017
  32. Part Two Lunar Phase
  33. The Book of Leah
  34. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  35. December 2017
  36. The Book of Leah
  37. Transfiguration 2018
  38. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  39. February 2018
  40. The Book of Leah
  41. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  42. February 2018
  43. The Book of Leah
  44. Lent 2018
  45. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  46. March 2018
  47. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  48. March 2018
  49. The Book of Leah
  50. Eastertide 2018
  51. Eastertide: Friday the 13th – April 2018
  52. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  53. Eastertide: Friday the 13th – April 2018
  54. The Book of Leah
  55. Acknowledgements
  56. Note On The Author

Yet still I hung back. I watched Barbara Stanney giggle with him at the kitchenette, transformed into a young woman again in the flow of his jokes and patter. She would bump her hip against his impishly, put a hand to his back – ‘Oh, stop it, Mr Hailey, what are you like!’ Even Ruth French dropped her defences early, delivering cutting assessments of Ben’s shirts and ties, snorting at the way he’d styled his hair. From her, this was acceptance, even affection. Each of my female colleagues was gifted their own individual way to be comfortable in his presence; I remained empty-handed.

One lunchtime in the staff room, he shared his desire to move on from his boarding situation with the widow Esther Deezer. The others cooed their dismay at Esther’s treatment of him – the meagre meals, the strict curfews. (‘Have you told her you’re not one of those fellas from the telephone company?’) I, meanwhile, affected a lack of interest. I slipped off my heels, hooked my feet beneath me on one of the low, soft chairs, as if I was at home, as if I was alone. I chewed on an apple and looked down into a book.

I kept an ear out for what was going on, of course. It was Faith Moran who proposed the Billet House on the edge of estate land where the harbour master, Abe Powell, lived with Saul Cooper, our Customs Officer, and Reuben Springer, a boatman and occasional barman for his brother Jed who ran the Anchor. The young Cater brothers lived there too, Mark and Andy, both farm labourers, along with Luke Signal, a wiry lad always in an oversized wax jacket, recently apprenticed under my father, the gamekeeper. This was much to the annoyance of Mary Ahearn, Jade-Marie’s mother, a rugged woman, capable, strong. She had been my father’s deputy for the last fourteen years and had long thought the senior post would go to her as my father prepared to hang up his boots. Then along came Luke, a male heir, and we all knew how that was likely to work itself out.

It was a bad idea for Ben to go and live in the Billet House, though it was hard to express why. The lodgings were basic, a little harsh, suited to a certain kind of man. They were built in 2002 not long after the Great Drowning, when ten new workers were hired from the mainland to replace the lost and needed to be housed all at once. It had been a necessary move – the recruitment, the swift construction – but was considered clumsy, as if the Council believed the only problem to solve in the wake of the accident was one of economics, of hands on deck. A couple of those drafted-in men married into the community, but most of them left.