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Chapters (56)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Title Page
  4. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  5. Part One Solar Phase
  6. June 2017
  7. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  8. The Book of Leah
  9. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  10. The Book of Leah
  11. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  12. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  13. September 2017
  14. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  15. The Book of Leah
  16. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  17. The Book of Leah
  18. October 2017
  19. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  20. The Book of Leah
  21. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  22. November 2017
  23. The Book of Leah
  24. November 2017
  25. Kingdomtide 2017
  26. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  27. The Book of Leah
  28. December 2017
  29. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  30. The Book of Leah
  31. Advent 2017
  32. Part Two Lunar Phase
  33. The Book of Leah
  34. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  35. December 2017
  36. The Book of Leah
  37. Transfiguration 2018
  38. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  39. February 2018
  40. The Book of Leah
  41. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  42. February 2018
  43. The Book of Leah
  44. Lent 2018
  45. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  46. March 2018
  47. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  48. March 2018
  49. The Book of Leah
  50. Eastertide 2018
  51. Eastertide: Friday the 13th – April 2018
  52. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  53. Eastertide: Friday the 13th – April 2018
  54. The Book of Leah
  55. Acknowledgements
  56. Note On The Author

Michael had been curious of late – Luke told this to anyone who would listen, clutching at them, gathering them around him, needing them to bear witness. His stream of justification, of confession, was punctuated by guttural sobs. His little brother wanted to know about kissing and touching, he said, what goes where and who does what. Luke had thought it funny, easier, to send the boy off for a practical demonstration rather than explain it to him himself. There was a promise waiting at the Sisters’ Stones – four girls, naked, willing – a red-lipped Viola had said it would be so.

Luke described in tender detail, if only to injure himself, how he had swapped boots with his brother and lifted onto Michael’s broadening shoulders the oily weight of his oversized wax jacket. On the boy’s vulnerable head he had positioned a pair of spiralling goat horns. All will be fine, was Luke’s assurance to Michael, at the last. In the pitch black, Luke had told him, those girls won’t know the difference.

And they hadn’t.

When they stood on the stage that morning in the Counting House and confessed to the gallery what their intention had been – to kill Luke – they believed that’s what they had done. There was no missing coda to their story to be offered once the women’s testimony was over – we meant to kill Luke but… They were sure that the body of the elder Signal boy lay there, still and bloodied, in the mud beyond the stones; they had reconciled themselves to that sin – that specific sin. The taking of this boy’s life was different from the taking of another’s – it was less. The sacrifice of Luke was a fair exchange for a greater good.

The girls had been under the spell of odious men certainly, so much so that they had adopted their behaviours, their means. They had put their trust in force and the inflicting of damage. They believed they could control a person’s fate.

When the elder Signal boy arrived on the harbourside, the girls might have thought him a true ghost, or else he was the brief apparition of relief. Had they managed to bring about long-needed justice and escape a black mark against their own names? Hallelujah! He is risen!

This relief could only have been fleeting. They understood the violence they had exacted, how irreversible it was, even if they hadn’t – as Saul had, as I had, in the unforgiving light of day – gone to the trouble of looking beyond the boots and the jacket, pulling aside the ferns and seeing that skull, that throat, looking into the open eyes of the boy who lay beneath.

Michael: inquisitive, eager, my best student, cruelly sacrificed for the sins of those who went before him.