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Chapters (56)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Title Page
  4. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  5. Part One Solar Phase
  6. June 2017
  7. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  8. The Book of Leah
  9. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  10. The Book of Leah
  11. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  12. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  13. September 2017
  14. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  15. The Book of Leah
  16. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  17. The Book of Leah
  18. October 2017
  19. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  20. The Book of Leah
  21. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  22. November 2017
  23. The Book of Leah
  24. November 2017
  25. Kingdomtide 2017
  26. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  27. The Book of Leah
  28. December 2017
  29. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  30. The Book of Leah
  31. Advent 2017
  32. Part Two Lunar Phase
  33. The Book of Leah
  34. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  35. December 2017
  36. The Book of Leah
  37. Transfiguration 2018
  38. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  39. February 2018
  40. The Book of Leah
  41. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  42. February 2018
  43. The Book of Leah
  44. Lent 2018
  45. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  46. March 2018
  47. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  48. March 2018
  49. The Book of Leah
  50. Eastertide 2018
  51. Eastertide: Friday the 13th – April 2018
  52. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  53. Eastertide: Friday the 13th – April 2018
  54. The Book of Leah
  55. Acknowledgements
  56. Note On The Author

The Eldest Girls looked shocked at this outburst, and Viola was readying herself to let loose some fury on them too when Leah said: ‘I do.’

‘Huh?’ said Britta.

Leah looked down at her hands, at the weaving of her fingers. ‘I do know what’s going on,’ she said, such weight to her words. ‘I do know and I did, I mean… Oh, this is so hard, I’m so sorry.’ The girls’ eyes were heavy with sorrow. Their breath came in anxious hitches. ‘I mean, I think I always knew. I could see what was going on, but I couldn’t let myself see. I know this makes no sense, but you have to understand – it never happened to me, my father made sure of that, and I just couldn’t bear for it to be true, because I love this island so much. I just decided that it wasn’t true, that it was… I don’t know… impossible! And I made up all those excuses for myself, for why my friends were running away to the mainland, I built up this fortress of denial, but then my brother left because of it, and my father died, and I just couldn’t…’ Leah broke down. ‘I’m so sorry,’ she cried, ‘I’m just so, so sorry.’ The Eldest Girls gave vent to their tears then, the four of them falling into one another, hugging desperately.

Viola stood separate, observing this – the outsider again, the coycrock.

‘You told me you had no brothers or sisters,’ she said, something to break them apart, anything to discredit Leah. ‘You lied to me.’

Leah Cedars looked up from their embrace to smile dopily at Viola, as if this was apology enough. High on her confession, the teacher continued in earnest – Luke Signal should be brought to justice, she told the girls. They should stand up in chapel and speak the truth of what he’d done, get the congregation behind them. Then, they could start talking about everything else.

The girls dipped their chins; they backed away.

‘No,’ said Anna firmly. ‘No one will believe us. They’ll think like you did, that it’s all impossible.’

‘I’ll back you up,’ said Leah, ‘I’ll be a witness.’

The girls flickered glances at one another.

Viola said aloud what they were scared to. ‘And who will listen to you? Everyone on the island thinks you’re insane.’

The teacher sniffed proudly and turned to Viola, squaring her shoulders: ‘So, what would you suggest?’

That you fuck off and leave us alone.

‘We have our own means,’ she told Leah. ‘Our own methods.’

Leah held Viola’s gaze, as if checking the temperature of their exchange.

There was silence, into which the teacher gave a great, withering sigh, before saying: ‘And the photos?’

The girls’ heads lifted, guilty, as one – Viola’s too. Leah Cedars had seen the images?

‘What photos?’ said Jade-Marie too quickly.