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Chapters (56)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Title Page
  4. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  5. Part One Solar Phase
  6. June 2017
  7. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  8. The Book of Leah
  9. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  10. The Book of Leah
  11. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  12. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  13. September 2017
  14. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  15. The Book of Leah
  16. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  17. The Book of Leah
  18. October 2017
  19. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  20. The Book of Leah
  21. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  22. November 2017
  23. The Book of Leah
  24. November 2017
  25. Kingdomtide 2017
  26. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  27. The Book of Leah
  28. December 2017
  29. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  30. The Book of Leah
  31. Advent 2017
  32. Part Two Lunar Phase
  33. The Book of Leah
  34. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  35. December 2017
  36. The Book of Leah
  37. Transfiguration 2018
  38. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  39. February 2018
  40. The Book of Leah
  41. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  42. February 2018
  43. The Book of Leah
  44. Lent 2018
  45. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  46. March 2018
  47. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  48. March 2018
  49. The Book of Leah
  50. Eastertide 2018
  51. Eastertide: Friday the 13th – April 2018
  52. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  53. Eastertide: Friday the 13th – April 2018
  54. The Book of Leah
  55. Acknowledgements
  56. Note On The Author

On February 14th, as my mother and I sat opposite one another at the kitchen island drinking tea, there came a knock. We looked up from our books and exchanged nods. My mother stood, brushed herself down and patted at her hair. Susannah Cedars was adamant that she would look presentable, nay, majestic, when our eviction came. We would be observed walking away down that hill, bags in hand, lackeys carrying our possessions in our wake. We’d been careful to box and seal as much as we could, so the detail of our lives would not be on display, picked over.

That lamp will have cost her a pretty penny in shipping.

A frying pan so big! No wonder he had a heart attack.

I expected the Cater brothers to be standing there as messengers, or perhaps we would suffer the ignominy of Luke Signal informing us that the lodge was now his and that us ladies were to show good grace and step aside. Mary Ahearn had, of course, capably taken over the management of the land after the funeral; she had, in some ways, taken over years ago, picking up the slack as my father’s health deteriorated. Yet we still did not know if she would officially be named his successor. After my suspension from school, and her daughter’s disgrace, the idea of Lark appointing its first-ever female gamekeeper seemed ever more absurd. The elder Signal boy was growing daily in confidence and wore a curl to his lip that suggested he knew something that we didn’t.

When I opened the door, there was no one there – no Luke, no Mark or Andy Cater.

In the porch lay an object, the shape of it making me recoil at first. I picked it up. It wasn’t completely smooth, the chiselled scoring of its creation was still visible, nor was it entirely even in shape, though symmetry had probably been the intention. I liked it precisely because of this unfinished and irregular quality. It was a St Valentine’s Day gift. A carved wooden heart.

When word reached Ben of what had happened at the Council meeting, he had visited me at my cottage in the way that he had used to – by tapping on the back door at midnight. We’d kissed in the kitchen, begun to tear at each other’s clothes right there. I felt like a prisoner with access to their lover for just one night; I had to drink my fill.

Lying upstairs in the mess of one another, he said to me: ‘I need to keep my job.’ He pulled me closer, those narrow eyes of his darting left and right, herding me into his gaze. ‘I have nothing here if I lose that. You at least have this roof over your head, you have your mother, her place, friends …’