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Chapters (56)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Title Page
  4. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  5. Part One Solar Phase
  6. June 2017
  7. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  8. The Book of Leah
  9. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  10. The Book of Leah
  11. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  12. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  13. September 2017
  14. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  15. The Book of Leah
  16. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  17. The Book of Leah
  18. October 2017
  19. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  20. The Book of Leah
  21. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  22. November 2017
  23. The Book of Leah
  24. November 2017
  25. Kingdomtide 2017
  26. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  27. The Book of Leah
  28. December 2017
  29. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  30. The Book of Leah
  31. Advent 2017
  32. Part Two Lunar Phase
  33. The Book of Leah
  34. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  35. December 2017
  36. The Book of Leah
  37. Transfiguration 2018
  38. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  39. February 2018
  40. The Book of Leah
  41. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  42. February 2018
  43. The Book of Leah
  44. Lent 2018
  45. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  46. March 2018
  47. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  48. March 2018
  49. The Book of Leah
  50. Eastertide 2018
  51. Eastertide: Friday the 13th – April 2018
  52. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  53. Eastertide: Friday the 13th – April 2018
  54. The Book of Leah
  55. Acknowledgements
  56. Note On The Author

She glanced furtively back at the house; her mother was there, an outline at the window.

‘What are you here for then?’ she asked quietly, rubbing at her arms, jigging in her trainered feet to beat back the cold.

‘Support,’ I said.

She had been unsure about coming with me; I’d expected that. I didn’t need to wonder what the Eldest Girls had told her. They despised me for stealing away their beloved Mr Hailey, and by rights, they could consider me in league with Mr Crane.

I had thought in the days since my father’s death of the times they had asked me questions in class, seemingly innocent things – tangents, I’d assumed, to draw us away from the tedium of GCSE exam practice. How come you wanted to teach here after being a pupil, didn’t it put you off? Is Mr Crane as strict with you as he is with us? I thought how easily I’d brushed theses enquiries aside. No wonder the girls had taken their fear and confusion to a stranger, to Ben.

Just as my father said, we, the island, had let them down.

I told Viola what I planned to do. I asked her to trust me.

She asked if she could bring her dog.

‘People think of that animal as a familiar, you know,’ I warned, ‘they don’t like it.’

But it was a deal-breaker. If Viola was to be my support, the dog was to be hers.

Our walk was illuminated by a perfect half-slice of moon, no need yet for the torches that we all, without a second thought, carried in every coat pocket. The dog gave us pause to stare out across the water, making us halt every few yards so it could squat low in the grass verge.

‘What is it doing?’ I asked.

‘Peeing,’ Viola replied cautiously, as if there might be a trick to my question.

‘But can’t it just go all at once, so we don’t have to keep stopping?’

She shrugged, suggesting there probably was a way to correct the animal, if only she had the desire to do it.

During our stuttering progress towards the harbour, I summarised my case, what I intended to say. I asked her if she was happy to back me up.

She puckered her lips in thought, then said, ‘It’s beautiful here really, isn’t it?’, which felt like an agreement, an understanding of what I was trying to do. Beside us, the waves were picked out silver by the particular glow of the moon, and I sensed that Viola was seeing this for the very first time, that she had been looking out across that ocean all these months and seeing no splendour, only distance.

‘Yes,’ I replied, ‘it is beautiful here, despite everything.’