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Chapters (56)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Title Page
  4. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  5. Part One Solar Phase
  6. June 2017
  7. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  8. The Book of Leah
  9. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  10. The Book of Leah
  11. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  12. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  13. September 2017
  14. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  15. The Book of Leah
  16. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  17. The Book of Leah
  18. October 2017
  19. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  20. The Book of Leah
  21. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  22. November 2017
  23. The Book of Leah
  24. November 2017
  25. Kingdomtide 2017
  26. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  27. The Book of Leah
  28. December 2017
  29. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  30. The Book of Leah
  31. Advent 2017
  32. Part Two Lunar Phase
  33. The Book of Leah
  34. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  35. December 2017
  36. The Book of Leah
  37. Transfiguration 2018
  38. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  39. February 2018
  40. The Book of Leah
  41. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  42. February 2018
  43. The Book of Leah
  44. Lent 2018
  45. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  46. March 2018
  47. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  48. March 2018
  49. The Book of Leah
  50. Eastertide 2018
  51. Eastertide: Friday the 13th – April 2018
  52. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  53. Eastertide: Friday the 13th – April 2018
  54. The Book of Leah
  55. Acknowledgements
  56. Note On The Author

The mother was sitting outside on that splintered veranda when we arrived, even though the temperature was dipping near zero. At the sound of our engine, the girl came out too, crashing the door back on its hinges, running down the veranda steps as if she might launch herself at my father when he stepped from the cab, for an embrace perhaps, or to bundle him aggressively to the ground. I stepped out too, driven by a protective impulse. Was this why I wasn’t so sure about listening to his advice anymore, because our roles were reversing? Was it my turn to look after him?

‘I haven’t been anywhere near your dogs!’ the girl yelled. ‘And Dot hasn’t been anywhere near the sheep!’

This was the first time I’d got close to her, heard her speak. Her accent was similar to Ben’s but not quite the same; the vowels rang flat. Her face was startlingly pale, the freckles picked out, like they are on the cheeks of Lark girls at the end of summer.

‘I came to warn you of a snare,’ said my father.

‘Oh.’

She was extinguished just as swiftly as she had caught fire, my father’s words the wet thumb against the flame. She pulled the too-long sleeves of her sweater over her hands and glanced at her mother who was pushing herself to standing, angling for a better view. The girl gave her a neat shake of the head that translated quickly – no need to worry – and the woman sat down again.

‘What’s a snare?’ asked the girl, returning her attention to us.

‘It’s for catching foxes.’

Her eyes widened at this.

‘Don’t you or your dog be getting caught up in it.’ Dad pointed towards the west cliffs. ‘It’s set in the thick of the brush, that way.’

I knew that voice – the extra gruffness put there to hide a tenderness beneath. It was unnerving to hear it being used on someone who wasn’t me. Would he tell the girl to keep her head down next, to do as he said so everything would be all right?

She nodded her understanding. We climbed back in the cab and drove away.

The clock slipped past one as we bounced down the steep hill towards the lodge, to Mum and to lunch, to the small parcel I’d seen wrapped on the kitchen sideboard that would be a piece of jewellery made by Charity Ainsley, Hope’s sister – an arrowhead of silver, decorated with some foraged jade. We would not be on time, but we would be close.

Then we came upon the goat, lying in a pool of its own blood, its body ripped in two.

Dad stopped the Land Rover and we got out to examine the carcass, its gaping chest and ravaged head, the congregation of flies.

‘Foxes, do you think? The girl’s dog?’