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Chapters (56)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Title Page
  4. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  5. Part One Solar Phase
  6. June 2017
  7. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  8. The Book of Leah
  9. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  10. The Book of Leah
  11. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  12. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  13. September 2017
  14. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  15. The Book of Leah
  16. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  17. The Book of Leah
  18. October 2017
  19. Ordinary Time: Autumn 2017
  20. The Book of Leah
  21. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  22. November 2017
  23. The Book of Leah
  24. November 2017
  25. Kingdomtide 2017
  26. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  27. The Book of Leah
  28. December 2017
  29. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  30. The Book of Leah
  31. Advent 2017
  32. Part Two Lunar Phase
  33. The Book of Leah
  34. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  35. December 2017
  36. The Book of Leah
  37. Transfiguration 2018
  38. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  39. February 2018
  40. The Book of Leah
  41. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  42. February 2018
  43. The Book of Leah
  44. Lent 2018
  45. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  46. March 2018
  47. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  48. March 2018
  49. The Book of Leah
  50. Eastertide 2018
  51. Eastertide: Friday the 13th – April 2018
  52. Friday the 13th – April 2018
  53. Eastertide: Friday the 13th – April 2018
  54. The Book of Leah
  55. Acknowledgements
  56. Note On The Author

To the right of the window is a door that she pushes open, expecting to find a cupboard within, or a walk-in wardrobe. It is larger than that, though not much. There is a paper frieze of illustrated ducks dancing around the centre of the lemon-painted walls. There is space enough for a cot, but the room is bare. The emptiness of it makes Viola shudder and she shuts the door again, eager to be rid of the sight, of the feeling too.

Leah’s bed is made just so, with cushions on top of pillows, a counterpane folded back from the duvet – Viola expected as much. She also knew she would find the full suitcase on the bed, ready to close, but still she tuts and shakes her head – disappointed. There is a glimpse of petrol-blue fabric beneath the piles of neatly folded items in neutral colours. Viola tugs the blue thing free – a gaudy pleated skirt – and holds it up before tossing it, watching it slide from the bed into a clump on the floor.

She sees now the track of muddy footprints she’s made across the cream rug. The damage is done, so she lies down, right in the middle of the bed, letting her feet mess the counterpane too. She is Goldilocks with the wrong-coloured hair. Who’s been eating my porridge? Who’s been sleeping in my bed?

Mr Hailey has slept in this bed, has done things with Leah in it. Viola closes her eyes and imagines him crawling across the blankets until he is there, above her, his mouth close, the scar fresh on his chin.

She could never admit it to the Eldest Girls, but she understood his charm after seeing him that night at the stones – a man who feels like a boy, a boy who is so obviously a man. She pictures herself succumbing, having him press down on top of her, slide his warm hands under the layers of her clothing. Viola slips her own hands between her legs, pulling upwards against the fabric of her pyjamas, and feels the beginnings of a shiver of pleasure.

Then Dot leaps onto her, red lead dragging, licking Viola’s face.

‘Get off!’ she squawks, shoving the dog onto the floor. ‘Get off me!’

She growls at the ceiling to keep Dot at bay, to be free of the moment. She sighs. What is she doing anyway, messing around like this? Viola swings her legs to sit on the bed’s edge and picks up a tall stoppered bottle from Leah’s night table. Mercury’s Lavender reads the handwritten label. The purple liquid inside is half-drunk. Viola opens it, sniffs its pungent floweriness, puts the bottle back.

She is wasting time, she knows it.