“I’m not sure I buy that,” Sam said.

“Oh is that right?”

“I don’t know. It seems like you know and you’re afraid to say it. What did you say earlier? Going after what you want can be scary? What is it you really want?”

“Okay I’ll be—I’ll keep it one hundred.”

“Please,” Sam laughed.

“I’m kinda lonely.” That confession turned the warmth Sam had been feeling in his chest sour. He curled his fingers gently around hers, like he could will the feeling away. “I knew what I was getting into when I moved out here, but it’s been a while and I’m still so homesick.”

“Do you think about moving back?”

“No. There’s nothing for me back in Rhode Island. I’m homesick for my parents though. I have friends here and you know, Helene. She’s an amazing friend. I just didn’t think LA would be so lonely. I need a pet skunk.”

“If they aren’t illegal I’m sure we can find you one.”

“I think that’s why I’ve enjoyed this weekend so much. Your family is great and they made me feel so included.” She rolled her fingers in his and pulled his hand a little closer. “I know you’re not supposed to say stuff like this on a first date, but you should know. I’m crippled with loneliness.”

“I know you’re joking a little bit, but I think you may be onto something.”

“Oh yeah?”

“About LA and the loneliness. Or maybe it’s just a millennial midlife crisis, but I think I’m there too. With loneliness. I have a place in Silver Lake, but when I’m not working I’m always here. I miss my family. I really miss my horse.”

“It’s like you turn a certain age and you think you’re supposed to magically become independent in this weird way, but that’s not how it works. Anyway, I don’t want to feel that loneliness anymore.”

Sam raised his beer. “Here’s to being a little less lonely.” Amanda clinked her beer against his and just as she took down another deep swig, her eyes widened. She slammed her beer down on the table.

“You are more than free to join me, but this song is my freaking jam and I am headed to the dance floor.” Sam cocked his head to the side and actually focused on the music coming through the sound system. As soon as he recognized the opening notes to Evelyn “Champagne” King’s “Love Come Down,” he grabbed Amanda’s hand and pulled her to the dance floor.

Chapter 16

Chapter 16