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Contents ( 38)
  1. Praise for Jen Frederick and her novels
  2. TITLES BY JEN FREDERICK
  3. CONTENTS
  4. CHAPTER ONE
  5. CHAPTER TWO
  6. CHAPTER THREE
  7. CHAPTER FOUR
  8. CHAPTER FIVE
  9. CHAPTER SIX
  10. CHAPTER SEVEN
  11. CHAPTER EIGHT
  12. CHAPTER NINE
  13. CHAPTER TEN
  14. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  15. CHAPTER TWELVE
  16. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  17. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  18. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  19. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  20. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  21. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  22. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  23. CHAPTER TWENTY
  24. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  25. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  33. CHAPTER THIRTY
  34. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  35. HEART
  36. AND SEOUL
  37. QUESTIONS FOR DISCUSSION
  38. What’s next on your reading list?

“I wasn’t. It’s where my dad last lived. I figured I’d go back and ask questions from the people who came to his funeral. It’s a place to start.”

“Okay. I didn’t mean to be rude. It seemed to fit. This isn’t a great place in Seoul, and if you were adopted, it’s because your mom couldn’t afford to keep you, right? Or she came from a super-religious family where she would’ve, like, died or something.”

Jules’s observation gives me pause. I never thought my mother’s life would be in danger if she got pregnant, but that could happen, couldn’t it?

“My father lived here before he died. I don’t know if my mother did. That’s what we’re here to find out.” Jules is right. If this is where I was born, it does explain a lot.

We pick our way past the loose rock, up the path toward the small building that had once sheltered my father.

“Why do you want to know about your birth family so bad? What are you going to find? That your parents are superrich and you’re going to live that crazy-rich Asian life? Or you’re secretly royalty? They don’t have that here in Korea. That’s Japan. And Thailand. And maybe a few other Asian countries.”

I swallow a sigh. So much for not explaining myself. “No. I never thought any of that.”

“Then what?”

I rub the soft spot between my eyes and wonder if I shouldn’t be the one earning the money for having to endure Jules. “I don’t know, okay? I never gave my birth parents much thought because I was left on the street. I had a better chance of winning the lottery than finding them. But my coworkers were getting DNA testing done, and I thought, why not, and when I researched the tests, there was this one that had an adoption matching service and so I went with that one. I forgot about it. Then there was this data breach and I had Lee Jonghyun’s contact information. Suddenly, I had expectations. I had to know.”

I omit mention of my adoptive dad’s remarriage, new son, and death. They weren’t the impetus for this hunt. They weren’t.

“But what is it that you have to know?” Jules presses.

I let out a long sigh. “When you look at yourself in the mirror, who do you see?”

“Me.”

“Who do you take after? Your mom or your dad?”

“Mom,” Jules answers immediately. “I have her eyes and face and basically everything. Also her limp hair.” She pulls at a hank of her blond locks. “It’s so fine, I might as be wearing corn silk on my head. It’s irritating. What’s the big deal about looking like your family anyway? It’s not like my parents were supermodels.”

“One of my first memories is being in the grocery store and someone who hadn’t seen my mom in a while comes up to her and asks whose kid is she watching. My mom answers, ‘Mine,’ and the other woman laughs like Mom had made a joke. So many times, the first words out of her mouth to explain that I belonged to her were that I was adopted.”