But the violence I saw in these pages wasn’t chopping down your enemies or fighting for survival. This was hate and jealousy and cowardice and all the things I’d felt inside the skull of that sick bastard on death row. The more I read, the more I remembered what it had been like to be in his head, and the more I wanted to be done with this chore.

Kristof saw or sensed my discomfort. But he said nothing, not an “Are you okay?” or, worse yet, a “Here, let me do that for you.” He just glanced my way now and then, knowing if I wanted to talk about it, or if I wanted to stop, I’d say so.

Finally, on the final wall, I hit my wall, the article that made my brain scream that it’d had enough. The headline read: MODERN-DAY MEDEA MASSACRES TOTS. The jaunty, off-the-cuff alliteration enraged me almost as much as the article itself. I could imagine the reporter, sitting at her news desk, completely oblivious to the details of the crime, the unthinkable horror of it, as she struggled to find the right headline. Gotta keep it short and catchy. Hey, look, I even tossed in a classical reference—guess that college education paid off after all.

My own education didn’t include a college degree, but I knew who the mythological Medea was, and what she’d done. As I’d suspected, the article was about a woman who’d killed her children to punish her husband. Three children, all under five, drowned in the tub, then laid in their beds. When her husband came home, he’d gone in to kiss them, as he always did, and found them cold and dead. His crime: philandering. Theirs? Absolutely none. Victims of a revenge that no crime imaginable could warrant.

Kristof slid over and read the headline over my shoulder. He put his hand on my hip and I let myself lean into him and rest there a moment before I pulled away.

“Gotta hope there’s a special place in hell, I guess,” I said.

“I’m sure there is.”

I’d have been just as happy to stick this crime on my “no” list, and never have to think about it again, yet something near the bottom made that impossible. A quote from a friend of the family. The kind of thing ordinary folks say when a microphone is thrust into their face, their opinions sought, wanted, important. The kind of thing they’d hear played on newscasts for days and sink a little with each iteration, wanting to scream “I didn’t mean it like that!” The perfect sound bite. The friend had admitted that Sullivan had threatened revenge against her unfaithful husband, horrible, violent revenge. So why had no one reported it? “Because we didn’t think she had the guts to pull it off.”