“Tolliver’s dad married my mother. We were brought up as family, after that.” If we’d been “brought up” at all, I added to myself. Mostly, we’d fended for ourselves. After a while, we’d become good at presenting a facade to the authorities who might separate us. Tolliver watched over Cameron and me, I watched over the two littler girls, Mariella and Gracie. Tolliver’s older brother Mark stopped by on a regular basis to make sure we were eating. If we weren’t, Mark would bring groceries. Tolliver got a job at a restaurant as soon as he was old enough, and he brought home all the food he could.

Sometimes our parents were both working, sometimes we got government assistance. But mostly the money went down their throats or into their veins.

We learned to survive on very little, and we learned how to pick clothes at the thrift store and at yard sales, clothes that wouldn’t give away our situation. Mark would lecture us on how important it was to make good grades. “As long as you keep clean and neat, don’t skip school, and make at least average grades, social services won’t come by,” he’d taught us, and he’d been right. Until Cameron vanished.

I tried explaining those years to Hollis.

“That sounds horrible,” Hollis said. His face looked sad, sad for the girl I had been, God bless him. “Did they hit you?”

“No,” I said. “Neglect was the key to their parenting system, even for Mariella and Gracie. My mom tried to take care of them when they were babies, but after that, it was kind of up to Cameron and me, mostly me. It was hard for us not to go down the same drain.” I had clung to my memory of what life had been like before—before my mother had begun using drugs, before my father had gone to jail. I’d promised myself I could have that life again. My two younger sisters hadn’t had as hard a time; they had no memory of anything better.

The tension of maintaining the status quo had almost killed me. But we’d managed, until Cameron got snatched.

“What happened then?” Hollis asked.

I fidgeted, looked anywhere else. “Let’s talk about something else,” I said. “The summary is that I spent my senior year living with a foster family, and my little half-sisters stayed with my aunt and uncle.”

“How was the foster family?”

“They were decent people,” I said. “Not child molesters, not slavedrivers. As long as I did my assigned chores and finished my homework, I wasn’t unhappy.” It had been an acute pleasure to live in a household that valued order and cleanliness.

“Any trace of your sister ever found?”

“Her purse. Her backpack.” I shifted my right leg, which tended to numb if I didn’t move it around.

“Tough.”