Tears came to her eyes. Mercy was more frightening than murder, because it was harder, and Randa didn’t deserve it. And even though she wanted what the voice wanted, she didn’t think she had the courage for it.

Po thinks you have the courage, the voice said fiercely. Pretend that you believe he’s right. Believe him, for just a moment.

Pretend. Her fingers were screaming, but maybe she could pretend long enough to get out of this room.

Katsa raised burning eyes to the king. Her voice shook. “I’m leaving the court,” she said. “Don’t try to stop me. I promise you’ll regret it if you do. Forget about me once I’m gone, for I won’t consent to live like a tracked animal. I’m no longer yours to command.”

His eyes were wide, and his mouth open. She turned and rushed down the long carpet, her ears tuned to the silence, readying her to spin around at the first hint of a bowstring or a sword. As she passed through her uncle’s great doors she felt the weight of hundreds of astonished eyes on her back; and none of them knew she had been only a breath, a twitch, away from changing her mind.

Part Two

The Twisted King

Chapter Sixteen

THEY LEFT well before daylight. Raffin and Bann saw them off, the two medicine makers bleary-eyed, Bann yawning endlessly. The morning was cold, and Katsa was wide awake, and quiet. For she was shy of her riding partner; and she felt strange about Raffin, so strange that she wished he wasn’t there. If Raffin hadn’t been there watching her go, then perhaps she’d have been able to pretend she wasn’t leaving him. With Raffin there, there was no pretense, and she was unable to do anything about the strange painful water that rose into her eyes and throat, every time she looked at him.

They were impossible, these two men, for if one did not make her cry, the other did. What Helda would make of it she could only imagine; and she hadn’t liked saying good-bye to Helda either, or Oll. No, there was little to be happy of this morning, except that she was not, at least, leaving Po; and he was probably standing there beside his horse registering her every feeling on the matter. She gave him a withering look for good measure, and he raised his eyebrows and smiled and yawned. Well. And he’d better not ride as if he were half asleep, or she’d leave him in the dust. She was not in the mood to dawdle.

Raffin fussed back and forth between their horses, checking saddles, testing the holds of their stirrups. “I suppose I needn’t worry about your safety,” he said, “with the two of you riding together.”

“We’ll be safe.” Katsa yanked at a strap that held a bag to her saddle. She tossed a bag over her horse’s back to Po.