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Chapters (67)
  1. Dedication
  2. Map
  3. Part I
  4. A Nest of Mice
  5. L’Enchanteresse
  6. Darkness Mine
  7. Coco’s Flame
  8. La Petite Larme
  9. An Insidious Presence
  10. A Game of Questions
  11. My Name Is Legion
  12. The Lighthouse
  13. Le Cauchemar
  14. No Rose Without a Thorn
  15. Part II
  16. Death at the Waters
  17. A Murder of Crows
  18. The Dragon and Her Maiden
  19. Litany
  20. Another Grave
  21. A Simple Favor
  22. Le Cœur Brisé
  23. The Waters’ Truth
  24. Mathieu
  25. What It Is to Drown
  26. What It Is to Swim
  27. The Final Verse
  28. Another Pattern
  29. Part III
  30. Doubt Creeps in
  31. Angelica
  32. A Lie of Omission
  33. A Magpie’s Nest
  34. The Green Ribbon
  35. The Oracle and the Sea Urchin
  36. The Most Beautiful Shade of Blue
  37. Sticks and Stones
  38. The Wager
  39. Holes in the Tapestry
  40. Winter Wonderland
  41. Deadly and Beautiful Things
  42. Ask Me No Questions
  43. Truth or Dare
  44. The Hangover
  45. The Rift
  46. Holy Men
  47. Part IV
  48. What Happiness Looks Like
  49. Take Me to Church
  50. The Belly of the Beast
  51. All Seven of Us
  52. Our Story
  53. Confessional
  54. A Single Spark
  55. A Shower of Light
  56. The Final Battle
  57. When a God Intervenes
  58. The Chasm
  59. As We Started
  60. It Ends in Hope
  61. Pan’s Patisserie
  62. Epilogue
  63. Acknowledgments
  64. About the Author
  65. Books by Shelby Mahurin
  66. Back Ad
  67. About the Publisher

Stop it. Clenching my aching teeth, I struggled to move my arms and legs in unison. She floundered in the opposite direction, and our skirt tangled in our feet, thick and heavy and dangerous. We sank another inch, and another and another, each of our panic feeding the other, heightening to a collective sort of frenzy. Nicholina, I said sharply, ignoring the roaring of my heart. It nearly exploded in my chest. Stop struggling. We need to work together, or we’re both going to die. I’m a strong swimmer. Let me lead—

Never.

The voices echoed her. Never, never, never. They swarmed around us, panicked and hysterical, and we sank faster still, weighed down by our heavy cloak and gown. I pulled at the former while Nicholina tried to loosen the latter. Swearing viciously, I joined her instead, and together—miraculously in unison—we unknotted the laces with stiff, clumsy fingers. She kicked at the skirt as I clawed at our cloak. Within seconds, both floated away from us through the black water, ominous and slow, before disappearing altogether.

Still we sank.

Shit. It was like swimming through oil, through tar. My lungs burned as I strained upward, and Nicholina finally, desperately mimicked my movements. That’s it. Keep going. Left foot, right foot, left foot, right foot.

We dance, we dance, we dance.

But we weren’t dancing at all. Already, white stars popped in my vision, and my head pounded from lack of oxygen. Sharp pain pierced my ears. And . . . and something else. Something worse. Too late, I realized that Nicholina’s veil—the darkness that had shielded her subconscious—had vanished altogether. The waters had stripped it. At last, her every thought, every feeling, every fear flooded our shared consciousness with startling clarity. Faces flashed. Pieces of memories, bits of sentiment tied to each one. Fervor and affection and hatred and shame. It was too much. Too many. I didn’t want them. Her emotions didn’t stop coming, however—so intense, so painful—and the full force of her being crashed into me like a tidal wave.

And so did my magic.

Gold and white exploded with blinding intensity, everywhere at once. Though I tried to catch a pattern—a pattern to swim, a pattern to shield, a pattern to anything—Nicholina’s emotions overwhelmed everything. They buffeted me.

What are you doing? What are you doing? She urged me onward, voice frantic, realizing too late what had happened. She hadn’t known her veil had lifted. Though she tried to summon it once more, the waters had shredded it beyond repair. Dance, little mouse! You must dance! Right, left, right, left, right!

But the waters didn’t drown us now. She did. Unadulterated emotion robbed what little of our breath remained, pulling us both beneath the onslaught. We sank and sank and sank with each fresh wave. No. We sank into each fresh wave. The darkness around us pricked with light.