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Chapters (67)
  1. Dedication
  2. Map
  3. Part I
  4. A Nest of Mice
  5. L’Enchanteresse
  6. Darkness Mine
  7. Coco’s Flame
  8. La Petite Larme
  9. An Insidious Presence
  10. A Game of Questions
  11. My Name Is Legion
  12. The Lighthouse
  13. Le Cauchemar
  14. No Rose Without a Thorn
  15. Part II
  16. Death at the Waters
  17. A Murder of Crows
  18. The Dragon and Her Maiden
  19. Litany
  20. Another Grave
  21. A Simple Favor
  22. Le Cœur Brisé
  23. The Waters’ Truth
  24. Mathieu
  25. What It Is to Drown
  26. What It Is to Swim
  27. The Final Verse
  28. Another Pattern
  29. Part III
  30. Doubt Creeps in
  31. Angelica
  32. A Lie of Omission
  33. A Magpie’s Nest
  34. The Green Ribbon
  35. The Oracle and the Sea Urchin
  36. The Most Beautiful Shade of Blue
  37. Sticks and Stones
  38. The Wager
  39. Holes in the Tapestry
  40. Winter Wonderland
  41. Deadly and Beautiful Things
  42. Ask Me No Questions
  43. Truth or Dare
  44. The Hangover
  45. The Rift
  46. Holy Men
  47. Part IV
  48. What Happiness Looks Like
  49. Take Me to Church
  50. The Belly of the Beast
  51. All Seven of Us
  52. Our Story
  53. Confessional
  54. A Single Spark
  55. A Shower of Light
  56. The Final Battle
  57. When a God Intervenes
  58. The Chasm
  59. As We Started
  60. It Ends in Hope
  61. Pan’s Patisserie
  62. Epilogue
  63. Acknowledgments
  64. About the Author
  65. Books by Shelby Mahurin
  66. Back Ad
  67. About the Publisher

“Most in the Church wouldn’t welcome us.”

“Most in the Church wouldn’t welcome their own mother if she was a sinner.”

“No. But they’d burn her if she was a witch.”

He arched a sardonic brow. “Is that what you’re after, boy? The stake? You want me to mete out your divine punishment?”

“I believe,” Beau drawled from the doorway, “he’s simply pointing out that you are among the Church—unless you’re actually the sinner of this story? Are you unwelcome amongst your peers, Father Achille?” He glanced pointedly at our dilapidated surroundings. “Though I abhor jumping to conclusions, our beloved patriarchs surely would’ve sent someone to repair this hovel otherwise.”

Achille’s eyes darkened. “Watch your tone.”

I interrupted before Beau could provoke him further, spreading my arms wide. In disbelief. In frustration. In . . . everything. Pressure built in my throat at this man’s unexpected kindness. It didn’t make sense. It couldn’t be real. As horrible a picture as Lou painted, a cannibal spider luring us into its web seemed likelier than a priest offering us sanctuary. “You know who we are. You know what we’ve done. You know what will happen if you’re caught sheltering us.”

He studied me for a long moment, expression inscrutable. “Let’s not get caught, then.” With a mighty harrumph, he stomped toward the scullery door. At the threshold, however, he paused, eyeing Beau’s bowl. He seized it in the next second, ignoring Beau’s protests and thrusting it at me. “You’re just kids,” he muttered, not meeting my eyes. When my fingers wrapped around the bowl—my stomach contracting painfully—he let go. Straightened his robes. Rubbed his neck. Nodded to the stew. “Won’t be worth eating cold.”

Then he turned and stormed from the room.

Darkness Mine

Lou

Darkness.

It shrouds everything. It envelops me, constricts me, pressing against my chest, my throat, my tongue until it is me. Trapped within its eye, drowning in its depths, I fold in on myself until I no longer exist at all. I am the darkness. This darkness, mine.

It hurts.

I should not feel pain. I should not feel anything. I am unformed and unmade, a speck in all of Creation. Without shape. Without life or lung or limb to control. I cannot see, cannot breathe, yet the darkness—it blinds. The pressure chokes, smothers, building with each passing second until it rends me apart. But I cannot scream. I cannot think. I can only listen—no, sense—a voice unfurling within the shadows. A beautiful, terrible voice. It snakes around me, through me, and whispers sweetly, promising oblivion. Promising respite.

Surrender, it croons, and forget. Feel no pain.