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Chapters (67)
  1. Dedication
  2. Map
  3. Part I
  4. A Nest of Mice
  5. L’Enchanteresse
  6. Darkness Mine
  7. Coco’s Flame
  8. La Petite Larme
  9. An Insidious Presence
  10. A Game of Questions
  11. My Name Is Legion
  12. The Lighthouse
  13. Le Cauchemar
  14. No Rose Without a Thorn
  15. Part II
  16. Death at the Waters
  17. A Murder of Crows
  18. The Dragon and Her Maiden
  19. Litany
  20. Another Grave
  21. A Simple Favor
  22. Le Cœur Brisé
  23. The Waters’ Truth
  24. Mathieu
  25. What It Is to Drown
  26. What It Is to Swim
  27. The Final Verse
  28. Another Pattern
  29. Part III
  30. Doubt Creeps in
  31. Angelica
  32. A Lie of Omission
  33. A Magpie’s Nest
  34. The Green Ribbon
  35. The Oracle and the Sea Urchin
  36. The Most Beautiful Shade of Blue
  37. Sticks and Stones
  38. The Wager
  39. Holes in the Tapestry
  40. Winter Wonderland
  41. Deadly and Beautiful Things
  42. Ask Me No Questions
  43. Truth or Dare
  44. The Hangover
  45. The Rift
  46. Holy Men
  47. Part IV
  48. What Happiness Looks Like
  49. Take Me to Church
  50. The Belly of the Beast
  51. All Seven of Us
  52. Our Story
  53. Confessional
  54. A Single Spark
  55. A Shower of Light
  56. The Final Battle
  57. When a God Intervenes
  58. The Chasm
  59. As We Started
  60. It Ends in Hope
  61. Pan’s Patisserie
  62. Epilogue
  63. Acknowledgments
  64. About the Author
  65. Books by Shelby Mahurin
  66. Back Ad
  67. About the Publisher

“I can mend your shirt, if you’d like,” Célie offered. “I’ve a needle and thread in my bag—” But she broke off when Coco continued to laugh wildly. When that laughter deepened into something darker. Crazed. Beau pulled her into his arms without hesitation. Her shoulders shook now for an entirely different reason, and she buried her face in the crook of his neck, sobbing incoherently. One of his arms wrapped around her waist, the other across her back, and he held her tightly, fiercely, murmuring soft words in her ear. Words I couldn’t hear. Words I didn’t want to hear.

I looked away.

This pain wasn’t for me. This vulnerability. I felt like an interloper. Watching them together—the way Beau rocked her gently, the way she clutched him for dear life—it brought a lump to my throat. Anyone could see where this was headed. Coco and Beau had danced around each other for months. Just as clear, however, was the inevitable heartbreak. Neither was in a position to start a relationship. They shared too much hurt between them. Too much grief. Jealousy. Spite. Even well-adjusted, the two would’ve been wrong for each other. Like water and oil.

I glanced up at Lou. We’d been wrong for each other too.

And so, so right.

With a sigh, I started up the path, my footsteps heavy. My thoughts heavier. Célie followed quietly behind. When we reached Lou, I laced her cold fingers through mine, and we turned to face the lighthouse.

Beau and Coco joined us several minutes later. Though her eyes remained swollen and red, she no longer cried. Instead she held her shoulders straight. Proud. Riddled with holes, Beau’s shirt still smoked slightly, revealing more skin than prudent in January. They didn’t speak of what had transpired, and neither did we.

We studied the lighthouse in silence.

It rose from the earth like a crooked finger beckoning to the sky. A single stone tower. Dirty. Dilapidated. Dark against the dawn. No flames flickered in the basin beneath the slanted roof. “The stable boy said no one lights the torches anymore,” Célie said, her voice low. I didn’t ask why she whispered. The hair on my neck had lifted inexplicably. The shadows here seemed to collect thicker than natural. “He said they haven’t been lit for years.”

“The stable boy talks a lot.” Beau glanced between us nervously. He kept his arm firm around Coco’s waist. “Do we . . . has anyone actually seen a cauchemar?”

“I told you,” Célie said. “It was a great hulking beast of tooth and claw, and it—”

“Darling, no.” Beau lifted his free hand with a forced smile. “I meant”—he struggled for the right words for a moment before shrugging—“has anyone else seen a cauchemar? Preferably someone who didn’t run away screaming?”