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Chapters (67)
  1. Dedication
  2. Map
  3. Part I
  4. A Nest of Mice
  5. L’Enchanteresse
  6. Darkness Mine
  7. Coco’s Flame
  8. La Petite Larme
  9. An Insidious Presence
  10. A Game of Questions
  11. My Name Is Legion
  12. The Lighthouse
  13. Le Cauchemar
  14. No Rose Without a Thorn
  15. Part II
  16. Death at the Waters
  17. A Murder of Crows
  18. The Dragon and Her Maiden
  19. Litany
  20. Another Grave
  21. A Simple Favor
  22. Le Cœur Brisé
  23. The Waters’ Truth
  24. Mathieu
  25. What It Is to Drown
  26. What It Is to Swim
  27. The Final Verse
  28. Another Pattern
  29. Part III
  30. Doubt Creeps in
  31. Angelica
  32. A Lie of Omission
  33. A Magpie’s Nest
  34. The Green Ribbon
  35. The Oracle and the Sea Urchin
  36. The Most Beautiful Shade of Blue
  37. Sticks and Stones
  38. The Wager
  39. Holes in the Tapestry
  40. Winter Wonderland
  41. Deadly and Beautiful Things
  42. Ask Me No Questions
  43. Truth or Dare
  44. The Hangover
  45. The Rift
  46. Holy Men
  47. Part IV
  48. What Happiness Looks Like
  49. Take Me to Church
  50. The Belly of the Beast
  51. All Seven of Us
  52. Our Story
  53. Confessional
  54. A Single Spark
  55. A Shower of Light
  56. The Final Battle
  57. When a God Intervenes
  58. The Chasm
  59. As We Started
  60. It Ends in Hope
  61. Pan’s Patisserie
  62. Epilogue
  63. Acknowledgments
  64. About the Author
  65. Books by Shelby Mahurin
  66. Back Ad
  67. About the Publisher

“You were born to be immortal, Louise.” Morgane lifted her hands, pouring her rage, her frustration, her guilt into another bout of fire. I rolled to avoid it—squashing the last of the spiders—and seized the lion’s skin as a shield. “Though destined to die, your name would have lived forever. We could have written history together, the two of us. You may scorn me now, you may hate me always, but I gave everything—I sacrificed everything—for you. For love.”

Feeding strength to the fur through another pattern, I crouched lower. The grass beneath her feet ignited instead. She leapt away from it with a hiss. “You cannot imagine the grief of your birth. Even you cannot imagine the bitterness I felt. I should have killed you then. I’d even lifted the knife, prepared to plunge it into your newborn heart, but you—you clasped my finger. With the whole of your fist, you clutched me, blinking those sightless eyes. So peaceful. So content. I couldn’t do it. In a single moment, you softened my heart.” Her flames subsided abruptly. “I failed our people that day. It took sixteen years to harden myself again. Even then, I would have gifted you everything. I would have gifted you greatness.”

“I didn’t want greatness.” Casting my shield aside, I pushed to my feet at last. Her heart might’ve softened for a newborn babe, but she hadn’t ever loved me—not me, not truly, not the person. She’d loved the idea of me. The idea of greatness, of salvation. I’d mistaken her attention for the genuine thing. I hadn’t known what real love looked like then. I glanced across the chasm to Reid, Coco, and Beau, who stood hand in hand at the edge, pale and silent.

I knew what it looked like now—both love and grief. Two sides of the same wretched coin. “I only wanted you.”

When I clenched my fist, exhaling hard, my grief ruptured into a storm wind: grief for the mother she could’ve been, grief for the good moments, for the bad moments, for all the moments in between. Grief for the mother I had lost, truly, long before this one.

The wind blasted her backward, but she twisted midair, and the momentum carried her closer to Célie. Wicked intent flared in Morgane’s eyes. Before I could stop her, she jerked her fingers, and Célie skidded from the blood witches as if pulled by an invisible rope. Morgane caught her. She used her body as a shield, pressing her knife to Célie’s breastbone. “Foolish child. How many times must I tell you? You cannot defeat me. You cannot hope to triumph. Once upon a time, you could’ve been immortal, but now, your name will rot with your corpse—”

She broke off inexplicably, her mouth falling open in a comical O.