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Chapters (67)
  1. Dedication
  2. Map
  3. Part I
  4. A Nest of Mice
  5. L’Enchanteresse
  6. Darkness Mine
  7. Coco’s Flame
  8. La Petite Larme
  9. An Insidious Presence
  10. A Game of Questions
  11. My Name Is Legion
  12. The Lighthouse
  13. Le Cauchemar
  14. No Rose Without a Thorn
  15. Part II
  16. Death at the Waters
  17. A Murder of Crows
  18. The Dragon and Her Maiden
  19. Litany
  20. Another Grave
  21. A Simple Favor
  22. Le Cœur Brisé
  23. The Waters’ Truth
  24. Mathieu
  25. What It Is to Drown
  26. What It Is to Swim
  27. The Final Verse
  28. Another Pattern
  29. Part III
  30. Doubt Creeps in
  31. Angelica
  32. A Lie of Omission
  33. A Magpie’s Nest
  34. The Green Ribbon
  35. The Oracle and the Sea Urchin
  36. The Most Beautiful Shade of Blue
  37. Sticks and Stones
  38. The Wager
  39. Holes in the Tapestry
  40. Winter Wonderland
  41. Deadly and Beautiful Things
  42. Ask Me No Questions
  43. Truth or Dare
  44. The Hangover
  45. The Rift
  46. Holy Men
  47. Part IV
  48. What Happiness Looks Like
  49. Take Me to Church
  50. The Belly of the Beast
  51. All Seven of Us
  52. Our Story
  53. Confessional
  54. A Single Spark
  55. A Shower of Light
  56. The Final Battle
  57. When a God Intervenes
  58. The Chasm
  59. As We Started
  60. It Ends in Hope
  61. Pan’s Patisserie
  62. Epilogue
  63. Acknowledgments
  64. About the Author
  65. Books by Shelby Mahurin
  66. Back Ad
  67. About the Publisher

Moisture gathered in my eyes. “I know.”

She didn’t seem shocked by the revelation, her gaze instead turning inward. As if she hadn’t heard me at all. “He told me he wanted me to be happy. He said if Beau could do that, I shouldn’t hesitate.” She shook her head sadly. “But I don’t even know what happiness looks like.”

“Of course you do—”

“What I know,” she continued determinedly, speaking over me, “is that it isn’t Beau’s job to show me. It isn’t anyone’s job but mine. If I can’t make myself happy, how can he? How can my mother or my aunt or my kin?”

Ah. A beat of silence pulsed between us as the pieces clicked into place. I stared, longing to wrap my arms around her tense shoulders. Whether intentionally or unintentionally, Coco had been abandoned by everyone she’d dared to love. Except me. It was no coincidence she allowed herself to be vulnerable with just one person. Still . . . my heart ached when I looked to Beau, who cast covert looks in our direction every few seconds. “He isn’t them,” I whispered.

She sniffed in response. “He’s a prince.”

“You’re a princess.”

“We lead two different peoples. His will need him, and mine will need me. Look around, Lou.” She splayed her arms wide, as if Morgane and Josephine and Auguste stood here with us now. “Regardless of how this plays out in Cesarine, our kingdoms are not aligned. They never will be. We can have no future together.”

I arched a brow, parroting her own words. “You won’t know unless you try.” When she glared at me, saying nothing, I took her hands. “No, listen to me, Coco. If you don’t want Beau, fine. I promise I won’t say another word. But if you do want him—and if he wants you—the two of you will find a way. You’ll make it work.” Unbidden, I glanced back at the cabin door. “Only you can decide what your happiness looks like.”

She squeezed my hands tighter, tears sparkling. “I told you, Lou. I don’t know what my happiness looks like.”

“It’s fine not to know.” Abruptly, I pulled her to her feet, throwing my arms around her at last. Beau, Célie, and Jean Luc ceased their murmured conversation to watch us, startled. I ignored them. I didn’t care. “It isn’t fine to stop trying. We have to try, Coco, or we’ll never find it.”

Coco nodded against my cheek, and her words echoed in my ears.

Honesty goes beyond telling him who you used to be, who he used to be, who you used to be together. You need to show him.