She put her hand on his face and turned him to look at her, brushing away his tears as she kissed him. “I love you so much. I love the all-consuming way you love me. I’ll never forget that day on your deck when you told me you’d been in love with me for years. I was shocked and not shocked at the same time. With hindsight, I think I’d known all along that you loved me like that. To hear that in the midst of the biggest crisis of your life you picked me above everything else only makes me love you more than I already do. It doesn’t mean we don’t love P.J. with all our hearts. It only means that he got lucky to be born to parents who love each other so much.”

He hugged her tightly as the tears continued to roll down his cheeks. “I don’t think I can do it again, Janey.”

“Do what?”

“Have another baby after what happened this time. To spend almost ten months living with that kind of fear… It would kill me.”

“Then we won’t have another one. We’ll be very thankful for the wonderful son we have and be grateful for all our many blessings.”

“You’ve said you don’t want him to be an only child.”

“I wouldn’t have chosen that for him, but he’ll be surrounded by cousins who’ll be like siblings to him. That’ll have to be enough for him.”

“Do you mean it? You’d really be okay with just having him?”

“I’d be okay with it. If we’re being entirely honest, the whole episode scared the hell out of me, too, and I only heard about it after the crisis had passed. If we’re just going to have P.J., maybe next year I could go back to school and finish my degree. I doubt I’d ever get around to finishing if we decided to have more kids.”

“I’d love to see you finish school. I’d be all for that.”

“Do you feel better at all after sharing it with me?”

“A little. You might’ve been right about something…”

“Just one thing?”

His laugh let her know he was really okay. “Subconsciously, me and my boys might’ve been worried about getting you pregnant again.”

“I’ll talk to Vic about getting on something to keep that from happening. In the meantime…”

“I’ll buy some condoms.”

“I should get Mac to buy them for us. He owes me from when he was dating Maddie and made me get them for him so no one would know they were sleeping together.”

“That would be funny, but I’d rather not have your brother in our business, if it’s just the same to you.”

“So I can’t torture him even a little bit?”