Chapters (13)
This is an accusation Marie-Claude has feared since Tristan was born. Until now, she never knew what she would say. Today, the answer slides out effortlessly: “He makes it easier for me, Flo. He’s easier to love.” She waits for a response, an opportunity to apologize or qualify, but hears only, after a long silence, the crinkling of another candy wrapper. She lets her statement linger between them, hardening into fact. It gives her strength, a sense of utter freedom. They feel like the first honest words she has ever spoken.
More than an hour later, still in the back seat, legs draped over her big duffel that she’s already practiced lifting twice to make sure she can carry it to the bus, Flo remembers when she heard the story about the ghost. It was the first night she’d ever spent in her father’s apartment, after the separation. Her whole life is now divided into what came before and what came after the separation. This was just after, in those first few weeks whose details are impossible to recall. But she has a flash in this hot car heading south of crying in a brand-new bed, begging her father for a story to put her to sleep. He didn’t know how to tell a story, he insisted, but Flo did not believe him. Anyone can tell a story, she hollered at him. Anyone. Finally he sat on the bed and told her how when they were very young, he and Marie-Claude (and Flo remembers this, too, how he said Marie-Claude and not Maman like he used to, as if her mother were now a sister or some friend of the family) had been invited to a castle in Austria. In his version, he saw the ghosts. And Marie-Claude didn’t believe him. No one did, he told Flo. They all thought he was nuts. But as the night went on, he became friends with these ghosts and, though he couldn’t tell Flo exactly how, got them back to their other world safely. Remembering this ending, Flo laughs out loud.
“Look,” she hears her mother say softly to herself. The ocean is suddenly beside them. They have reached the beginning of the cape earlier than expected, before dinner, before sunset. Waves crack, then flatten onshore, releasing a sour smell that quickly fills the car. Plump seabirds stand on one leg in the shimmering glaze left behind. Flo has forgotten to mention the bus station.
Marie-Claude feels Tristan stir beside her. “Look,” she whispers again, and he opens his eyes onto the wide shaft of blue alongside the car, turns to her, and asks her to tell him, just once more, the one about how he was born.
THE MAN AT THE DOOR
There were two of them in the basement already, unfinished, the pages hidden in a cabinet behind the cans of paint and stain. This one was her third attempt.