I sucked in a sharp breath. “I was in love with him, Mom, but that was a long time ago. I’m not that girl anymore.”

“You may be a woman now, but that doesn’t mean how you feel about someone has changed.”

My gaze flipped to the ceiling.

“And this Grady fellow you went out with, he was a good man, I’m guessing? Attractive. Smart. Interested in you? But you felt nothing for him and it was going nowhere?”

“Yeah.” I frowned, thinking I knew where this was heading, and this conversation was so not turning out the way I expected it to.

“You sure you still aren’t in love with Brock? And if it’s not love anymore, you’re not interested? You don’t think about him?” Mom paused. “I want an honest answer.”

Walking away from the counter, I shuffled out to the living room. “I . . . I don’t know.”

“That’s not honest.” When I didn’t speak, she said, “Jillian, you’ve been through a lot. I know this, and you’ve been hurt. If I could take that hurt from you, I would.”

“I know.” I walked to the window and pulled back the curtain. I stared at the woods behind the apartment complex.

“And that hurt—the kind Brock laid down on you and the kind you physically suffered—obviously would have you hesitating,” she said as I watched the bare branches sway in the wind. “I don’t blame you for that. No one would, but it shouldn’t stop you from taking risks.”

Chewing on my bottom lip, I said nothing because going there with Brock was a huge risk.

“Living is all about taking risks, Jillian. Isn’t that what you’re trying to do? To start living again?”

Part of me wished I’d never told her that when I’d left home for good, because she had a point, damn it.

“Do you still like him?” she asked again.

“I . . . I don’t know,” I whispered a bit lamely.

Mom laughed quietly. “Honey, I think you know how you feel.”

I thought I did too, because truth was, no matter what, even when I hated him and I hated everything we’d ever shared, I still liked him. I never stopped liking him.

“Are you driving up with him for Thanksgiving?” she asked.

“I don’t know, Mom.”

Her laugh brought a wry smile to my face. “I’ll see both of you soon, and I have a feeling at the exact same moment too.”

Hanging up the phone after I told her my plans for the day, which involved finally putting together bookcases, I let the curtain fall back in place. Mom made it all sound so simple, but it wasn’t.

But she was right.

Living meant taking risks.

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