Chapters (33)
“Don’t you judge me,” Fima grumbled aloud to Yoezer. “Just be quiet. Anyway, what can a wishy-washy individual like you understand? Who’s talking to you anyway?”
Large sharp stars shone before his tired eyes. Fima did not know their names, and he did not care which was Mars or Jupiter or Saturn. But he longed to understand where the vague feeling came from, that this was not the first time. That he had been here before, long ago. That he had already seen these glimmering stars on a cold deserted winter’s night. Not from the window of this flat, but maybe from the doorway of one of the low stone cottages among the dark boulders opposite. And he had asked himself then what the stars in the sky wanted from us and what the shadow of the hills in the darkness was saying. And there was a simple answer. Which had been forgotten. Wiped away. Although for a moment he had the feeling that that answer was struggling on the threshold of his memory, so close he could reach out and touch it. He hit his forehead against the glass, and shivered with cold. Bialik, for one, claimed that the stars cheated him. They had not kept their promise. Their appointment, as it were. But surely it is the other way around: they have not cheated us, we have cheated them. We are the ones who have not kept our promise. They called us, and we forgot to go. They spoke, and we refused to hear. Cranes wheeled—and were gone.
Say a word. Give me just a little pointer, a hint, a clue, a wink, and I’ll get up and go at once. I won’t even stop to change my shirt. I’ll go right away. Or prostrate myself at your feet. Falling in a trance with wide-open eyes.