Chapters (33)
“If you ask me exactly when my separation from you began, at what moment in time, or what you did wrong to me, I can’t give you an answer. The answer is: I don’t know. What I do know is that in Greece you were alive and here in Jerusalem you’re not. You merely exist, and you do even that as if existence itself is a bother. You’re an infantile thirty-year-old man. Almost a replica of your father, but without his Old World charm, his generosity, his gallantry, and for the time being the goatee. Even in bed, you’ve begun to replace love with submissiveness. You’ve become a bit of a flatterer. But only with women. With Uri and Micha and Tsvika and the rest of your chums you’re in a state of perpetual war in your late-night debates. Every now and again you remember to toss Nina or me or Shula some compliment, the same compliment to any of us indiscriminately, a little flattery by way of payment: the cake was excellent, your new hairstyle is lovely, that’s a pretty plant. Even if the cake is a bought one, the hairstyle isn’t new, the plant is really a vase of flowers. Just to keep us quiet and stop us from interrupting you and your chums in your endless skirmishes about the Lavon affair, or the fall of Carthage, or the Cuban missile crisis, or the Eichmann trial, or the anti-Semitism of Pound and Eliot, or who foresaw what in a discussion you had at the beginning of the winter.