Chapters (33)
“What do I understand of love? Once I used to think that love is the point where cruelty and compassion meet. Now I think that’s idle chatter. Seems to me now I never understood anything. I comfort myself by reflecting that apparently other people understand even less than I do. It’s all right, Tamar, just cry, don’t hold back, it’ll make you feel better. I’ll make you a glass of tea. Never mind. In a hundred years love and suffering will go the way of the dinosaurs, along with blood feuds, crinolines, and whalebone corsets. Men and women will mate by exchanging tiny electrochemical impulses. There will be no mistakes. Do you want a biscuit with it?”
After making the tea, and after some hesitation, he told her the story about the conference of railway chiefs, and he explained why in his opinion Mr. Cohen was right and Mr. Smith was wrong, until she smiled faintly through her tears. In the drawer of his desk he found a pencil sharpener, a pencil, some paper clips, a ruler and a paperknife, but there were no more oranges, and no biscuits. Tamar said it didn’t matter, thanks. She was feeling better already. He was always so goodhearted. Her projecting Adam’s apple seemed not so much funny as tragic. Because of this tragic feeling he began to doubt whether those to come, Yoezer and his friends, would really manage to live more rational lives than ours. At most, cruelty and stupidity would adopt subtler and more sophisticated forms. What use are jet-propelled vehicles to someone who is aware that his place does not know him?
This biblical phrase, “his place does not know him,” so moved and fascinated him that he had to whisper it to himself. Suddenly, illuminated, he could see a whole sublime, beguiling Utopia enfolded in that everyday phrase. He made up his mind not to talk to Tamar about it, so as not to add insult to injury.
Tamar said:
“Look: the kerosene heater is almost empty. Why are you talking to yourself?”
Fima said:
“I put the electric one on in Gad’s room. I didn’t go into Alfred’s room at all. I’ll do it in a minute.”