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Chapters (67)
  1. Dedication
  2. 1Playing the Sap—Again
  3. 2Fit for Life
  4. 3Auteur Deconstructed
  5. 4Long Shot
  6. 5Designer Beer
  7. 6Crossing the River
  8. 7A Happening Place
  9. 8On the Hill
  10. 9Red Menace
  11. 10What Big Teeth You Have
  12. 11Rabid Fans
  13. 12Ugly Duckling
  14. 13One Sober Minute
  15. 14It’s a Mad, Mad, Mad, Mad Scientist
  16. 15And Besides, the Mensch Is Dead
  17. 16Down by the Riverside
  18. 17Junkyard Dogs
  19. 18Those Good Old Days
  20. 19Dead End
  21. 20The Short-Tempered Arm of the Law
  22. 21Voices from Home
  23. 22Barflies
  24. 23Picture Perfect
  25. 24Trespassers W
  26. 25Trouble in Douglas County
  27. 26Patriots Care
  28. 27Spiritual Adviser
  29. 28Disappearing Act
  30. 29Data Swapping
  31. 30Visiting Brass
  32. 31Origin Stories
  33. 32Carrying the Can
  34. 33Picking Through the Bones
  35. 34Hard Words
  36. 35Knee-Deep in Water
  37. 36Casual Day in Court
  38. 37Twenty-Four-Karat Smile
  39. 38Upscale Housing
  40. 39Surprise, Surprise!
  41. 40Polar Bear
  42. 41You’re So Ignorant
  43. 42Sonia, April 1983
  44. 43Hazmat Site
  45. 44Swabbing the Decks, or Something
  46. 45Here for the Duration
  47. 46The Fighting Germs
  48. 47Playing with Germs
  49. 48Late Night at the Library
  50. 49Baby Blues
  51. 50Where Oh Where Can My Baby Be?
  52. 51Known Unknowns
  53. 52Good Country People
  54. 53Date Night at the Movies
  55. 54Now the Wench Is Dead
  56. 55Men in Black
  57. 56Snake Eyes
  58. 57Tang Soo
  59. 58Ci Sono
  60. 59Entertaining Visitors
  61. 60Fairy Tales
  62. 61The Sisters Grow Up
  63. 62There’s No Place Like Home
  64. Thanks
  65. About the Author
  66. Also by Sara Paretsky
  67. About the Publisher

“Just one last question and I’ll get out of your way. Who is Magda? Your sons told me—”

“Magda?” Red spots appeared on her face, fury sending blood to her head. “Has that bitch reappeared? I thought we were rid of her for good, little goddamn bitch of a sycophantic pseudoscientist.”

I backed away involuntarily, as though her vitriol could eat through my own skin. The stack of books wobbled and fell over.

“Get out of my house,” Shirley hissed, her face still blotched. “Get out of my house, and don’t ever dare come back into it.”

I stood on shaking legs. “Rid of her for good when? Last week or last century?”

She hurled her pen at me. Her aim was good. I got my hands up fast enough to protect my face, but my wrist took a stinging hit.

I retreated toward the kitchen but stopped long enough to say, “I called the hospital this morning. Sonia’s still in a protective coma. I talked to her brothers yesterday. They were both distressed and wished they’d known sooner that she was hospitalized.”

“If you dare bother my children again, I’ll get the police involved,” Shirley spat.

“Does that include Sonia?” I asked. “Have you been to the hospital yet?”

This time she threw a book, but I was out of range. I walked down the dusty hall and let myself out through the front door.

I wished I hadn’t deposited Peppy at Free State. I could have used a little puppy therapy about now. As a poor second, I drove to the end of the street and lowered my car seat so I could lie back, eyes closed.

Shirley’s anger was so extreme it singed. Who was the more damaging person in that marriage, Shirley or Nate? He was volatile and abusive, she was drunk and vitriolic. What a sea for a poor little polar bear to swim in. I found myself blinking back tears for Sonia.

I massaged my temples. Breathe into Shirley’s anger, let it wash away from you. I thought of my own parents, my father’s deep, protective love for my mother and the nights she and I had stayed up, sick with worry, while he worked the free-fire zones on Chicago’s West Side.

My mother died when I was sixteen, on a cold March day. My father and I had spent the night in her hospital room, my father inserting himself between the tubes and wires in her bed so that he could cradle her in his lap. I was at her side, holding her hand. For sixteen years we had been a little triangle of love, with me as the apex they both supported. I’d spent too much time on self-pity, the loss of my mother heavy in my heart, weighted further by my father’s death a decade later. I had never stopped to think how exceedingly lucky I’d been.