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Chapters (42)
  1. Cover
  2. Title
  3. Dedication
  4. Carey Logan Retrospective Coming to Young Museum
  5. 1996
  6. Chapter One
  7. 2011
  8. Chapter Two
  9. Prudence
  10. Chapter Three
  11. Chapter Four
  12. Chapter Five
  13. Chapter Six
  14. Humility
  15. Chapter Seven
  16. Chapter Eight
  17. Chapter Nine
  18. Chapter Ten
  19. Chapter Eleven
  20. Chapter Twelve
  21. Chapter Thirteen
  22. Chapter Fourteen
  23. Chapter Fifteen
  24. Chapter Sixteen
  25. Chastity
  26. Chapter Seventeen
  27. Modesty & Temperance
  28. Chapter Eighteen
  29. Purity & Obedience
  30. Chapter Nineteen
  31. Chapter Twenty
  32. Chapter Twenty-One
  33. Chapter Twenty-Two
  34. Chapter Twenty-Three
  35. Chapter Twenty-Four
  36. One Year Later
  37. Chapter Twenty-Five
  38. Acknowledgments
  39. Discover Barbara Bourland
  40. About the Author
  41. Also by Barbara Bourland
  42. Reading Group Guide

Outside? he mouthed. I nodded.

The crowd was suffocating. I was pushing, shoving, squeezing to get through, as was everybody else, when I passed a room where Charles Eliot was holding court. “Well no, we had no idea,” he was saying to a group of people, looking elegantly disappointed. I paused, safe within a scrum of strangers, to watch him play this out.

“Isn’t it fraud?” someone demanded.

“There have to be damages. Right now—everything is fine. The work continues to hold its value.”

Helen Sprain stood behind him, back-to-back, so they could work the largest number of conversations in the smallest possible square footage. She was elegant, with soft red hair, hard black eyeglasses, and a slightly oversize mauve wool suit.

Charles said something out of the side of his mouth to Hen; she reached back and brushed his leg with one burgundy finger; he tapped her with his elbow and said a name; she leaned her hair into his and nodded in such a way that he could feel it—and all the while, they were carrying on multiple conversations with collectors, curators, artists, and the various personalities who had been issued a ticket. The Young Museum, I realized, was merely a venue. Eliot&Sprain had orchestrated everything: the work, the guest list, the timing—even, I realized, the seat assignments in the theater.

Charles and Helen symphonically directed the futures of Carey Logan and Maria Clarke. Two artists for the price of one. Max appeared at Charlie’s side, hand on her big belly, and he brushed his cheek against hers. Max smiled. Hen turned and hugged Max, like she loved her—motherly, almost—while Charles looked on, something haunting his elegant face.

Then I didn’t hear the noise in the room anymore, or feel the bodies shoving against mine. I thought only of Susan Bricklings-Young saying, the night of the turtle party, “He was so very in love with her. It was all so upsetting,” and I understood that she meant Charlie, and the breakup of his marriage. “She didn’t know what she had,” Susan said about Carey. Maria wanted to be with Charlie, but couldn’t, or wouldn’t, tell him the truth about herself. And so—he married Max, after six weeks of dating.

Charlie wasn’t Max’s prize, like I’d always thought. She was his consolation.

And with that, the spell was broken. It didn’t matter anymore, not to me, what Max and Charlie did to each other, because I never wanted to see either of them ever again.